Im a failure....
Im feeling lost
And no one wants to help me
They claim to help me but they lied
Lied to me....
Lied about how I'm going to succeed in life.....
Lied about how good god is
Lied about how life is good
God didn't hear me cry for him.......
He didn't do ****...
Im giving up.....
Im giving up on life......
Nobody seems to care
Nobody wants a failure......
My parents abandoned me
And sent me away.......
Die in a field of black dying roses,
Where my heart can bleed with them without having anyone asking " are you ok?"
Cause all they want is to lie and cause you more pain,
Base off how i feel right now......
You left me
You left me stranded. . .
Hurting my heart like it was nothing
Why did you do this to me?
Please. . . .
Dont leave me
I need you here
You died in my arms
I didnt get the chance to say goodbye
Now im completely broken
Im mourning your loss
I cry everyday
Because of you
I have no one to turn to
My beast friend has died last year, and i hadnt moved on, it hurts me badly to think of him, because he gone, forever
bleeding.....bleeding from my heart
but i cry tears of blood
no one can help me
but where is my family and friends when i need them?
it seems that i cannot escape this
i cannot escape my past
my past haunts me everyday
i feel like i'm tearing apart
my heart has been ripped out of my chest
i am holding on
holding on of what i know
though i cannot say
that i love pain
i hate it mostly
i want it gone
i want it to disappear
screaming for help
but i know nobody can hear me
based off what i felt in the past
Here is what It's like to be me.
My head and heart are a battle ground of love and hate. Sometimes i have to remind myself that my thoughts are just thoughts. I cant turn them off but i can call them useless. They are just the voices i hear and i as my own weapon, I can fire back at them by not listening. That really makes them angry. Got to keep fighting tho, i have to. I'm hoping one day they just disappear.
It was I who was there when you needed someone.
It was I who always hug you when you needed one.
It was I who knows your flaws but still accepted you completely.
It was I who cares for you and loves you fully.
But why her?
Then I realized, I'm just a ghost that no one will ever notice.
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