Tonight I am in deeper than usual.
Losing you hurts worse than normal.
Most days, I stand on the shore as your memory laps at my feet.
But tonight, tonight I am drowning.
Memories of you crash into my brain.
It's been a year and nine months, but still so much pain.
I miss you my dearest Uncle.
Missing you comes in waves
Tonight I am in over my head

only your love
burying me in the
tides of autumn,
conjuring lips
and steel,
singing the deep
emotional blue of our hearts.

Storming rain
The sound of life
Deeply drains
Into a strife

Only my age
Lives in my booth
Becomes my cage
My future, my truth

It’s just some tears
No one should care
Fighting my fears
Do not despair

To finally cope
Severely drifts,
My promising hope
Is what has left

I can't be any closer to you
You can't be further away
                    I just want time to freeze
                    I don't want anything but to stay
                                        Stay here
                                        With you
Look at me
While I pretend to be asleep
                    Resting on your shoulder
                    You holding my hand
                                        *Just stay