I hear you talk,
I see your lips moving.
The shape of your mouth forming letters after letters.

I smile and agree.
Eyes crinkle with mirth,
My voice booms in the space between us and the silence of the universe.

I see you,
I hear you,
But do I really?

I'm there, but I'm not.
I feel, but I don't.
I smile, when I feel pain
And I talk when I'm not sure what to say.

It's not me you're talking to,
But my body responding to you,
Like an autopilot.

An unknown feeling is lit up from inside.
Like my grandpa's fireplace, its fire is burning red.
Hand reaches up,
Trying to hold myself from burning up.

"Ouch!",
Nose scrunched up,
Brows all furrowed.,
My mind is ragged, my soul is beat...
When really...
Silence is all I crave.

Breathing slow and breathing deep,
The sweet pain is all I feel.
Call me mad, or call me crazy,
It won't hurt, cause I am already.

Oh-oh,
The unknown feeling has reached me now.,
Should I stay, or should I run?

Fighting, is what I do.,
With "Happy Thoughts",
And "Big Smiles"
But sometimes,
I still lose the fight.

Gasping loud, I open my eyes.,
I think the world, just took me apart.

Darkness is all around me.,
The feeling of wool under my skin,
As I realize it was just a dream.

My body unmoving,
My mind racing...
I can hear the silence I was craving.

But now, I feel stuck
And empty.,
Should I go back to sleeping?

Ohh...


But don't worry,
Whereas I am stuck, unmoving,
Time is running out.

One, two, three...
...tick-tock, tick-tock.,
Heat is slowly sinking,
And my heart is still beating.

Yesterday I was lost.
Screaming and running
I tried to find a way out,

But only dark alleys and silence I found.


Today I'm lost again.
Screaming and running,
I try to find a way out,

But only a far, far away light I find.


Tomorrow I will be lost again.
Screaming and running,
I will try to find a way out,

Because no one knows what i will find.

Be it darkness ,
Or a way out,
My feet won't stop running,
And my voice won't stop screaming,

Because hope still runs through me.