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My way to separate from you
A great distance,
As if in between a long light years,
Your light takes to reach

Until my darkness
One sleepless night alone
As if a full dark moon
A thick dam on my eye

But your lipstick looks red
As if the color of my blood
Your Car black
Like the color of my skin

Your love pink
Mine blue
Your dream in color
My black and white

You are a star, live beside a star
I can see you
But don't ever go to the touch
Not an one of the far
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যেন এক মরিচিকা
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আমার পথ তোমার থেকে আলাদা
একটা বিস্তর দুরত্ব
যেন মাঝে এক লম্বা আলোকবর্ষ
তোমার আলো এসে পৌছাতে সময় লাগে

ততক্ষণ আমার অন্ধকার
একাকী এক বিনিদ্র রাত
যেন আমাবস্যার চাদ
বাধ সেধেছে আমার চোখে

কিন্তু তোমার লিপস্টিকটা লাল
আমার রক্তের মতন
তোমার গাড়িটা কালো
আমার গায়ের রঙের মতন

তোমার ভালবাসা গোলাপী
আমার নিল  
তোমার সপ্ন রঙিন
আমার সাদা কালো

তুমি তারা থাক অন্য তারার পাশে
তোমাকে দেখা যায়
কিন্তু কখনো স্পর্শ করা যায় না
অনেক দুরে যেন এক মরিচিকা
  
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@Musfiq us shaleheen

pacify my mouth with a white-knuckled fist
and kiss my scars with a tongue void of emotion
squeeze my knees together with hands too bruised to hold
with my shaking fingers
will the knots around my neck
  squeeze me like you do
    and leave bruises like you do
the ends of your hairs tickle me
along the sides of my neck
and tell me to scream
tell me to scream
scream when you leave me alone after dark
scream when the burn of alcohol no longer stings my lips
scream when the bags under your eyes turn into luggage
    stationed next to the front door
your hands around my neck tightens like the knots never could
and the luggage looks like heaven
and somehow i find myself in the inside of your suitcase

some people just do not get it
do they?

they think they can see you clearly
when in reality, you are not a window

you're more of a piece of one-way glass
people think they can see through you
but from the other side
its completely opaque

they say
"Your smile makes others smile!"
when really you're thinking
"My smile is so forced."

its hard
seeing everyone all happy
when you're all sad
they just dont get it

so you laugh it out
you laugh when they do
you smile with them
you put on the best **** act you can

they dont know that youre breaking
they cant see it
its the one-way glass
they dont understand

you might open up to people
but they mainly just leave
some will stay
but its likely theyll leave

so you go to school
or work
or out in public
and you force it

you force your happiness
and your smiles
and everything
and you just laugh it out

laughing makes it seem like
youre perfectly fine
youre okay
but you arent

they just cant see through
the piece of one-way glass
they dont know
they wont know

as long as you laugh it out

I'm tired of forcing you out of my every thought.
Convincing myself I don't want you isn't working and I'm sure it hasn't worked for anyone.
You can't just flip a switch and forget about someone.
What if this person was exciting?
Made you feel desired?
Made you want to get up in the morning?
Why would you want to give that up?
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The truth is, the possibility of us is all that it's ever going to be.
A possibility
A what if.
A maybe.

And even though it hurts, I don't want to fight my thoughts anymore.
I'll think of you until I'm ready to let the idea of you go.
That's all you are anyway.
A stupid idea.

I’m sick and tired of being that friend
the one everyone turns to and the one
who has to sort out everyones problems
i’m sick of being everyones punching bag
but i’m that friend who will always be there
and help you through your problems
even when I’m feeling like **** myself
can I for once be the one to be asked
if I’m okay?

*(s.m)