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today
my mother
asked me to try on a shirt
and i said sure
so she said
"take your shirt off"
and i stopped
"will you leave?"
i asked politely, hoping she wouldn't suspect
she bobbed her head
side to side
the universal sign
NO

she saw the red scars on my stomach
the scratches i cut
deep
but not in my skin
she made them deeper
she pretended like they weren't there
but they were
blood red scars
killing me slowly

and i'm shaking
shaking because i dont want to be a ******
i swear mom
i'm not
just help me
please
age 1
i cried
we all cried

age 2
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 3
i read
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 4
i drew
i read
i waddled
i cried
we all cried

age 5
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i went to school
i cried
we all cried

age 6
i went to kindergarted
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 7
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 8
i went outside
i played sports
i watched movies
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 12
i cried
we all cried

age 13
im still crying
but you never did
none of you
ever cared
i skipped ages 9-11 becayse yeah
the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free
my dreamsss
my favorite hoodie
the biggest one
hide my body
and the pain all gone
scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please
my mind
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
 Nov 18 Nobody
Sadie Grace
She paints with watercolors because they bleed all over the paper
like the feelings coming out of her mind bleed all over her arms
like the words shouted at her bleed all over her heart
She wished one day to paint with acrylics
they were simple and quiet
they colored inside the lines
they didn’t bleed
but who cares anymore?
She’s already numb to it all
 Nov 18 Nobody
Erian Rose
Her heart painted waves
Deeper than her rising flames
in the silence, shadows loom, i grapple with my private doom. food, my solace, my despair, calls to me from everywhere.

each morsel, a fleeting balm, in the chaos, a moment's calm. yet beneath the comfort, a plea, a desire to finally be free.

mirror, mirror, reflecting pain, a story written, etched in shame. i seek release, a lighter frame, but all i find is more of the same.

craving’s hold, so tight, so deep, in the lonely hours, i weep. to resist, to rise above, to find strength where there’s none.

each bite a secret, buried low, a struggle only i know. wishing for control, for peace, for this torment to finally cease.

for in this cycle, i find my plight, day turns to night, and night to day. yet somewhere, hope feels far away, a distant dream, fading gray.
 Nov 18 Nobody
sunny
changing
 Nov 18 Nobody
sunny
even the anticipation turned into a nightmare
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