Why?

i don’t know why i tried,
said what i said,
or do what i do.
being with him was pointless
he doesn’t make me feel the way i should,
loved that is
it won’t matter in the end
because it’s no secret i know he feels it too,
us breaking in two
—an excerpt from the book i’ll never write
C.T.

Yesterday I let you go
but it's like you didn't know
We still talk like before
Thought we'll change, but no

Maybe tomorrow will be different
Or probably later this will fade
As our time passed and laid
You will be just a great friend

Let's just hope for the best
and let give ourselves a rest
Without grieving
Just forgiving.

i look at the sky
and all i see are your eyes
i smell the forrest
and all i scent is your cologne
i feel the rose ‘s petals
and all i caress are your lips

and my body swells
and my blood heats up
my head is spinning
and it looks like i’m flying up high

is this how love feels?
like walking on the clouds?
like all that feels you is air
and butterflies inside

i am a fool
my smile won’t fade
you’re every whisper
inside my head

and i might break into song
if you i see you pass
may kiss your lips
if i have the chance

though deep down
once the drugs fade
and my blood turns cold
i remember the talks
i remember the stones
that we carried into battle
one that we fought
but oh so poorly
that we lost

My wings ripped off
Bound to the ground
Crying out to the dark for help
Only echoes of my voice answer
You removed your wings
And gave them to me
Allowing me to fly
While you stay on the ground
And waste away to ash

I searched inside myself to realize
there is nothing left to find.
A heart of stone and eyes that never cry,
a confused and twisted mind.
My soul is cold and black as starless nights, never meant to shine.

I know i am just a no one born on forsaken lane.
Belonging nowhere except to the house of pain.
There is no peace within me, no compassion i can claim.
A ******* of the world is my bane.
Will someone tell me my name?
I am a man without a name.


I searched inside myself to realize...there's no one left to find.

Of all the words I struggle to say
There was only three
Where I went all in
And risked it all
They found refuge
In my cheek
So I stumble when I speak
But they couldn't resist
When you moved In for a kiss
The words got cancelled out
When they eventually fell from my mouth
By the redness in my cheeks
And my heartbeat
My chest became a pillow once again  

I hope you find comfort in my jumpers
When I can't be there.