Kalliope

Kalliope Aug 2024

I've been a thousand women
For a handful of men,
Each act greater than the last
But never enough for an encore.

At the end of the night
When I take off my mask,
Ready to be the one they fall for,
It's only emotional baggage left.

So I'll pack it up
And put it away neatly,
In case they ever return,
And I'll yearn
And I'll wish
And I'll dream
For someone to WANT to
Want to be with me

I want to be wanted
But scared to be seen
I think truly I know
What that means in the end for me

#love #heartache #longing #lust #limerence #reflection

Kalliope Aug 2024

Deja Vu

Familiar but distant
Different yet the same
I can't believe you still have that t-shirt,
What's made you come around again?

Time has aged your face
But your eyes haven't changed
And I can't look away

#love #short #nostalgia

Kalliope Aug 2024

Frozen Coals

My heart a hearth with endless fire,
They always return when they're cold
And I'll give and I'll give,
I have heat to share
But now I feel ice in my bones

Can someone get me a lighter?

#thoughts #short #drained #lonely

Kalliope Aug 2024

Why Today?

You brought me flowers
But what does it mean?
I can ponder for hours
But I still want you to leave

And this wine is my favorite
I'm surprised you remembered,
I don't know what you expect of it
The man I once loved, you almost resembled

But you haven't been him for a long while
And I know you'll never be him again
Sure, these gestures make me smile
But to say I still love you would be pretend

My skin was black and blue
At the hands of you
A time I won't forget so soon

#toxic #past #abuse

Kalliope Aug 2024

Backwards

I grab a brush,
Just to ruin the painting

And with my pen,
I'll disrupt the flow

When I open my mouth,
I butcher the chorus

And I only spew facts,
Everyone already knows

A walking disaster,
Filled with good intent

Busting through walls,
Instead of being let in

Happy to be here,
Not knowing when to leave

Mistake after mistake,
Never stopping to just breathe

I wouldn't hold my hand either

#reflection #intentions

Kalliope Aug 2024

Watercolor Ink

I'll write you a letter
That you'll never see,
I hope to feel better,
Go back to being me

It's written in invisible ink
With tears splattered on the pages
So I can never go back and think
I could have made all the right changes

#heartache #longing #love #limerence #letgo

Kalliope Aug 2024

Panic

Heart is racing, skin on fire
Jittering buzzing pacing cussing
Hair is wild, eyes look crazy
Shaking crying mumbling breathing
Face is wet, chest is pounding
Screaming running hiding sobbing

Keep it all inside
The best I can

#mentalhealth #panicattack #panic #short