Meadow

Meadow Jan 2018

I want to know what it's like
To be in love
What it's like to have someone
Who will look at you
And call you theirs
And be proud of it

To have someone
Who I want to spend my life with
Who I believe is my soul mate
And who I would hold on to
At all cost

I want to know what it's like
To have been in love
Even though the first is rarely the last
It's something I crave
I crave the first glance
That leads to falling
Which leads to comfort
Even though I know
It will likely end
In heartbreak

I just want the expience
I want to know the whole ride
With all the ups and downs it takes
But I guess for now
I'll just have to wait

Meadow Jan 2018

Inevitable

Pain is inevitable
No matter what you do
You are going to hurt someone at some point
And that can be hard to deal with
So you try to avoid it at all cost

But if you live to afriad
To hurt someone else
You will only hurt yourself
And trust me
Other people will do that to you enough

Pain is inevitable
It is a fact of life
No matter what, you will hurt other people
And other people will hurt you
Which is why it is okay
To put yourself first
When the world is already hurting you enough

Meadow Jan 2018

Replaceable

I want someone to need me
Or at least want me
To feel my presence
To turn to me for help
To cry on my shoulder
To ask to spend time with me
As much as I ask them

Because right now
I just feel like the unwanted friend
The one who no one really wants around
But politely puts up with

I'm the replaceable teammate
Who has useful skills
But my space could easily be filled
By a thousand other people

Everywhere I go
I am either unneeded
Unwanted, or replaceable
I am merely a spare person
Who people forgot
The moment I am beyond sight

#unneeded #unwanted #replaceable #spare

Meadow Jan 2018

Dominoes

So many things have gone so wrong
This row of dominoes
That one by one would fall to the ground

If I tried to stop them
I would simply knock more over
And so I was forced to sit and watch
As one fell right into the other

Until one remained
This one last beacon of hope
Of which I focused everything I had on
And for a while it was enough

But like all the others
It was eventually knocked over
And I was left with nothing
But a row of fallen objects

I wanted to be upset
I wanted to feel some form of loss
For dominoes do not take long to fall
and once they were all on the ground
I had the chance to feel everything that had happened

But by the time the last domino fell
I was used to it
And it was just added to the list
Of things that won't happen for me

Meadow Jan 2018

Ambitious

I had no ambitions
I had simply an idea
Your the one who volunteered
To bring it to life

You're the one who convinced me
That this could be done
That we would be partners
Throughout it all

Now you tell me
After I spent a month and half
Working on this, and falling in love with it
That it was doomed from the start

You tell me
That it was too ambitious
When honey you were the ambitious one
I was just a creator

Then you tell me
That I'll never succeed
But I'm not the one who bailed
On the one they called a friend

Now I'm the ambitious one
And the one with the idea's
And you're just the one who left
Because he was too afraid to fail

#ambitious #ideas #betrayal #creator #partnership #failure #success

Meadow Jan 2018

The Human Mind

You will never see the world
the way I do
I can try to convey
The world I see
But the reality is
You will never be inside my mind

Just like I will never be able to never enter yours
We like to think we understand eachother
But there is no real way to
Because no matter how much we share with another
Interest, goals, fears,
There is no way to know for certain
That we feel the same they do

There is something beautiful in that
Contributing to the statement that everyone is unique, and different
But it's also terrifying
Knowing that you cannot be anything but alone
When you're in your own head

But there is real power in this
Knowing what you have is truly your own
And no one can take that from you
And anyone can their power
To create something truly special

#mind #different #special #alone #power #understanding #beautiful #terrifying

Meadow Jan 2018

Relax

Relax, everyone tells me
Just breathe, you'll be fine

When will people realize
Being told to relax
When you're mid panic attack
Does nothing?

And breathing
Is what you're trying to do
But when you are crumbling
Under the weight of the world
It can be hard to catch the breath

This is not in your control
And that is the problem
You want to relax
You want to breathe
But you can't
Without control of yourself

#anxiety #stress #relax #control #breathe