As the clock ticks
And the crickets sing

As the days pass
And my needs rise

As my heart aches
And my eyes bleed

Your arrival is close
And my joy overflows

Now we’re together
The worst is over

As we have this moment
And the wait was worth it

As I have your hugs
And all your love

The days go by
And it’s time to say goodbye

As the tears storm
And the worries return

I’ll be yearning
Till you’re with me again

I’ve been here before
I promised myself I would never be here again
But here I am

Back here…

A place I’m ashamed to be
A place I know I’m not ready for
A place I can’t be who I am

Back here…

Wondering if the ground can swallow me up
Longing for a truck to run me over
Wanting a bomb to ******* away

Back here…

With pain
With regret
With disappointment

Back here…

Where I will be all by myself
Where I will be judged without a chance to explain
Where I will have to do everything on my own

Back here…

With tears stinging my eyes
Worry burning my veins
And fear consuming my being

Back here…

Why did I come here
How did I get here
Knowing what I had to spare

Back here…

Wish I didn’t have to think this again
Pray I find a way out again
Hope I would never be here again

I stand at the beach
Sand in my feet

The sun is shining bright
It's such a beautiful sight

I stand at the beach
Water over my feet

The sea is glowing blue
Ocean waves splashing too

I sit at the beach
Enjoying a wonderful view

Beautiful kites in the sky
Ice cream trucks passing by

I walk on the beach
A cone in my hand

The ocean breeze misty and cool
Sand castles high and tall

I swim at the beach
Cool water on my skin

The salt water in my mouth
Having fun without a doubt

A day at the beach
I wouldn't have missed

Smily faces everywhere
I always love it here

On a cold night
After a long day

Back here
Wishing she was miles away

Whispers of the wind
Hiding her tears

Caught in a haze
Wishing to go ablaze

She wipes her eyes
Used to disguise

Her kids play scrabble
While she sets the table

Lost in her thoughts
While dinner is running it’s course

Today is long gone
But tomorrow is a new run

Mariam Shittu
xo

It was a love
That was magical
It went beyond fantasies
And lustful desires

It was a love
That was unexplainable
It went beyond feeling
And unselfishly giving

It was a love
That wasn’t ordinary
It went beyond hurting
And unequivocally abasing

It was a love
That caused pain and despair
It went beyond heartbreak
And too many tears

It was a love
That was unfathomable
It went beyond distrust
And continuous berating

It was a love
That was controlling
It went beyond danger
And persistent fear

It was a love
That was depressing
It went beyond being unpredictable
And considering surrender

It wasn’t love
It was hostility
It went beyond everything
And led to death

Mariam Shittu
xo

Go away
I don't want you here

You always come unexpected
Creeping in slowly

You always come when you want to
Bringing me pain

I try to cure you
But you leave only when you want to

I think you are relentless
Because you keep coming back

When you are here
I can't concentrate

When you are with me
I am not myself

I turn off the lights
So I can accommodate you

I put my head down
So I can make room for you

It's hard to explain you
Because you are not visible

Please leave
Because you are not wanted

Go away Migraine
So I can live my life

It’s been a long time coming
The day is finally here
My day
A day I’m not sharing

Everyone is here for me
Well for us
My day
A day I feel special

My name is on everyone’s lips
Well our names
My day
A day I will always remember

I am dancing away my sorrows
Happy to start my forever
My day
A day I bear a new name

I am crying tears of joy
Looking around in awe
My day
A day I feel happiest

All my friends are here
To stare and wish me well
My day
A day I look the prettiest

I’m happy I found you
I can’t stop smiling
My day
A day I have no worries

Two have become one
I’m glad I chose you
Our day
A day we get our happily ever after