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MaiMai Mar 2019
Ember burning bright.
Born for destruction or born for light?

Can someone hate their creation?  Because I'm afraid of my own design. What I may be capable of. In a snap of a finger my ember can spark destroying what is and was.
"You're loved" is what you say but you can't get it though your brain. I'm impotent to my strength.

You don't want to look at me, don't look at me. You run away from me, run away from me. I am aware of my aftermath toxic smoke so it's ok. I know I cause nothing but heartache.

Beware because I've been known to ruin lives.
Use caution, I might spark into a raging fire
Be careful if you make me to happy I might burn you alive. Causing spiritual death leaving people shattered, trying to pick pieces, due to me forgetting about my hazard.

The word gentle isn't in my mental vocabulary. My touch, my touch is dangerous. It's warm at first, almost comforting in the beginning but the longer you hold me the more I singe. I don't want to cause you sanity. So stay away, far from my ember, in fear your oxygen will ignite this fire.

Embers burning bright
Born for destruction or born for light?
look at me in the eye then you decide.
MaiMai Oct 2018
Looking down at the ground, where  see all the leave.
  deep in thought, wondering why life isn't great as I imagined to be.
Sixteen trying to convince myself to believe that I'm ok, that my life is the same as the little girl that laughed everyday, no worry no care wondering how everything changed, attempting to grab a branch and gasp for air, like a tree that's full of leafs though one falls no one cares. Not wanting to show I'm changing like a leaf in the fall, wanting to be a positive role model people look up to but here I am on the ground, looking up for a hand while people look down. Like a leaf falls from a tree, losing it's ablity to produce the air we need. I'm falling and forgetting how to breath, covered by snow, buried in hate, but I  shouldn't lose hope because ever year the snow melts away, decomposing the leaf to feed the tree, helping it grow and regaining its green leaf.
MaiMai Nov 2018
Can a cloud be beautiful if it remains in one place?
Will you still love me if I chose to stay?
Stay angry
Stay dejected
Stay miserable
And be affected...
By the past
And the pain you caused to make it last
Am I being reasonable or destructive?
Is it in my heart to have forgiveness?
Even though you don't deserve it.

Can a cloud be beautiful if it remains in one place?
The clouds might cry, The rain in sky.
They might roar and thunder as anger.
But it always passes by
The clouds never stop moving on
Makes me wonder why can't I
MaiMai Jan 2019
Our hair may grey and old age may come, but you will always stay here in my heart. As i look into your eye's. Hoping we never say good bye but walking into paradise with a smile knowing we'll never be apart
MaiMai Aug 2019
Unity
Why does it mean so much?
Why does it matter that it should be amongst us, between friends, in families, our congregation, neighborhood communities
Let's think about the word unity again
The first three letters stop look closely
U. N. I
You and I
It's Ironic how that works
We can't go anywhere with our relationship with the people we love without this next statement in mind
Humans creation was designed to be a continuous population and togetherness Yet we always find a way to remain separated. Is it possible you could look deep in your heart and soul and find you need me just as much as I need you.
The topic of unity isn't just one underlying issue. It involves communication
When you're happy and feel you have to celebrate, send me a text
Call when you're sad because I know you battle with being depressed
Tell me about your fears no I can't take them away I'm not Jehovah but understand I'm here. Or even when we have a disagreement
How am I supposed to know your upset
It's not supernatural
I don't speak telepathical
I feel like khalid. Can you just talk to me?
Tell me how your feeling voice your opinions that's what's wrong with society. You know why because the lack unity
Patience is also key but that's another song for a different time. We're towards the end **** before I go this is what you should know
Coming together is a begining
Keeping together is progress, working together is success
Without unity there can be no strength
MaiMai Jan 2019
How many seconds?
How many hours?
How many minutes?
Before you shower me and all of my insecurity.
Why do I love you so much?
I wish it'd go away
The exhilarating fire I feel when we touch
Just gives my stomach pain
Knowing we could never be in love
Breaks my heart
The little thing you do that drives me wild.
Like your smile with the slight gap in the front
Or your brown eyes that make me so gullible.
I get intoxicated with your words
They roll off your lips making me levitate, feeling untouchable  
I don't know what hurts more
Suppressing these feeling or
The fact you may not feel the same that has me torn.

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