One Year Ago Today I Was:

In A Bad Situation To Say The Least
Feeling Very Worthless And Alone
Incredibly Cold In The Snow
Staying A Friends House
In Love With A Monster
Heavily Intoxicated
Wearing A Dress
Bleeding Out
Violated

Today I Am:

Far Away From My Past And The Pain
In Love With My Dear Sweet Boy
Happy Healthy And Free
Studying For My Trade
Without a Single Cut
Living on My Own
Emotionally Intact
Warm At Heart
Reborn

Watching and waiting
A safe passage through
Never ending
The torment of you
I'm on my way, i'll beat the dark
Your days of being alone end tonight

If the stars in the sky would lend me a heart
You would not know the meaning of the word apart
Though the twinkle may fade It all is the same
My morningstar deep in the night
Though far away now
I will reach you tonight
Though the twinkle may fade It all is the same
You're the light in a world of dark

I know it hurts
It hurts me too
But keep your chin up, you'll pull through
Mountains will fall and oceans will rise
I promise you morningstar
You won't be alone tonight

If the stars in the sky would lend me a heart
You would not know the meaning of the word apart
Though the twinkle may fade It all is the same
My morningstar deep in the night
Though far away now
I will reach you tonight
Though the twinkle may fade It all is the same
You're the light in a world of dark

I promise you morning star there's no need to fear
I'll keep you safe now dry your tears
I’ll be right here, all through the night
Shine on now, brighter than bright
I love your shine, your sparkle, your glow
You can forget what it was like being alone
Though the mountains did fall, and the oceans did rise
I am here with you tonight

I watched and I waited
The safe passage through
**** all the torment of being away from you
We're stronger together
We can face the dark

The stars in the sky lent me a heart
Forget that blasted word apart
Though the twinkle may fade it all is the same
My morningstar deep in the night
I’m with you now
Now and every night
Though the twinkle may fade it all is the same
You're my light in a world of dark

I thank the stars for my heart
Finally together, as it should have from the start
Your light is brilliant just like you
Even if you're a morningstar deep in the night
You light up my world
Well worth the fight
Never let anyone put out your shine
You make life worth it even in a world of dark

It’s the color in your breath against the icy air
It’s the touch of your skin on mine when our hands meet
It’s the sight of a peeking sun while you hold me after a long night
It’s the taste of your lips on mine
It’s the feeling that you fill my heart with

It’s the color of your temper
It’s the touch of your tightening hands on my throat
It’s the sight of my blood-stained body
It’s the taste of my pain every time I swallow
It’s the feeling of rage that fills your heart

It’s the fleeting color red that floods my vision just before I drop into darkness

He is the sunrise over the black hills
He is the feeling from which my soul spills

He is the beating of my heart
He is the pain of being apart

He is my song
He is where I belong

He is amica mea