Is this a safe place
are you a safe place
for me to set down
the race, the pace,
to unburden?

That’s still challenging to do.
And what about you?
Am I those things too?
Perhaps we could be that for each other.
Except, what exactly am I unburdening?
I think you have depth there
for me to hear.

I always feel that I am solo.
Always need to be prepared,
not to rely on the other.
You are, actually,
the closest to me,
but also, you’re quite far.

You’re away in action.
Or, through inaction.
And I have so much to set.
So I resort to self.
It feels stark,
but,
reliable.

I love you
I said but received no reply
you're angry at me I can tell
it breaks me inside
but I pretend all is well
you promised
I plead
but that just makes it worse
I shrink down in myself
it seems like a curse
I cant stand my ground
or fight for respect
so I'll beg for you love
give you my body to connect
I look in the mirror
and hate myself more than before
because the parts you called pretty
lie broken on your bedroom floor
you don't seem to realize
you don't seem to see
so ill shut my mouth
cause the problem must be me

a girl with books
wobbling as she tries to balance them
she cant be older than seven

A boy in the adult mystery section
repeating to himself
"I need a boys book not a girls book"

A mother with her two children
following her like ducklings
leaving havoc as they pass

A girl and her mom
reading aloud
in the middle of the cooking isle

I don’t want to die,
I want to cease to exist.
To never have been born
And never have lived
For my soul and body to disappear
For any memory of me to be gone
To dissolve into nothingness and
Never have been anything at all

I wish I asked you sooner
Because now I feel complete

Pain hurts, no?
Then why is this one comforting?
It helps keep myself in check, and stops from disappointing.

It hurts like hell, but I know no other.
It stuck with me through bad and good, while all the others smothered.

It stops me from getting mad and pointing the finger at others.
Instead I blame myself, and I'll kindly suffer.

It's my best friend, it never leaves my side.
Its everlasting, and it shows.
It doesn't even let me cry.

It's all I've ever known.
I couldn't love another.
Please don't take my pain away, and kindly let me suffer.