You know something's about to blow when you've been sleeping early for three straight nights.
Missing one dinner, you start killing all the lights.
All of a sudden its 2AM and you're doing things you shouldnt do.
Caged monster struggling to get out inside you
You start hating yourself more after that.
But hey, there's no one to talk to so who gives a crap.

Cigarettes are cool.
They are the bad kids at school.
The friends your parents dont trust.
But they are the best companion when you just want the whole world to shut up.

I cant keep a rhyme.
You started slipping out of my mind.
All of a sudden I fight with myself.
The monsters that I kept for so long are slaying me at their best.
I know Im at my weakest.
Forgive me for keeping my self control at the lowest.
I realized, in life you have to pick your  stick.
You either drive hard while let life kick.
Or kick it while your down, with your body on the ground.
You were once my inspiration.
I used to fight and kick back while life takes it turns.
But when you left, the pain became unbearable.
I was crawling to the ground begging for help and affection.
Two years of that and I turn into a *******.
I havent felt pain, love nor joy.
Thanks to you Im as numb as a plastic toy.

you dont drive me crazy anymore.
you dont look as good as you look before.
you dont smell the way I want you anymore.
you stopped appearing in my dreams unlike before.

I start laughing again.
I start eating right again.
My beer number has gone down.
I started living right again now.

Thanks to what has been.
Cheers to what will be.
I still remember your face.
But you and me, both out of the race.

Here's my thought, being alone is
a humbling experience.

When I start thinking of you,
will you think of me too?