is this what I was searching for?
Where is the end

I just feel like I'm suffocating
I can't breathe
maybe I'll make my own end

so my dear
if you are reading this
it means
that I am already dead.

Help me
I'm falling

And I don't know
How to ever get up
Because I'm in the deepest hole
In total darkness

With no way out

You're drowning
You're suffocating
You can't breathe

The panic takes over
No one there for you

Help

You turned around and asked me
Why I couldn't sleep

But how am I supposed to tell you
The million thoughts that goes through my head
every time I try to sleep

The words you say
I don't think you know
How much they hurt

The things you do
It actually hurts
like I can feel the pain
Going through my whole body
not just my heart

and it can make me feel
so alone
even when I'm right next to you