I sold my last breath
For a pocket full of memories I would soon forget
Because I forgot what it feels like
To stop breathing

Briefly I allowed myself to falter
I leapt
Down, down the wish well
I caught a glimpse of myself
Smiling
Breathing
Laughing
As the little voice told me I loved you
I leapt full force
And came crashing down
Until there was nothing
But me and the waves at my feet
I walked on water for you
On earth
On air
I walked on fire for you
And as my world came crashing down
It was only you behind the glass
Ready to pull me out

I need a soul stronger than mine
Not to save me
But to hold the other end of the rope
To watch me walk it
To be the goal
The end
The finish

Love,
I fear
Is lost with me
Through eyes dark as coal
and crows
I left a piece of my
Humble heart
The core of all I could have been
There could only be two
The quiet
Whispering
Devil
And the broken bodied prince
I lost them
I lost them both
And I fear
I will never love again

I feel the plates of the earth pushing us apart
We grind and we glide but we never let go
I think about you there in the cold winters
On my tiny island
In my inferno
I think about the scruff on your face
The rose in your cheeks
I wonder about your scent
I think about the way your skin must feel
Underneath another's nails
But in truth I know I deserve no claim
My loyalty came with a price
And to be fair
The wound is still raw
Still open
Still waiting
If waiting for the past makes me a fool
Then to hell with wisdom
I won't swallow this
But today is not the day
For resolutions

I wanted to stop
Truly I did
But the idea became more than disillusion
I was drawn to it
We were all drawn to it
Like flies
But it was bound in thick glues and saps ready to **** us in
I watched him take the first bite
Venom spilt from his lips
Molding them
Rotting them
I ran with determination
But there was the apple
The drug
The venom
I wanted to stop
But **** it was sweet