Today I sit remembering all the memories we made and how we planned to make so many more
I have never lied to you nor will I start today, I am scared as hell of the thought of losing you it rips my heart to the core
You will never know what you mean to me and how much I need you to stay
I have been on my knees Praying that God gives you another day:
You are so much closer to the road you want to be on, I want to see your dreams come true
I want more than anything to have that walk on the beach just me and you:
So see you have to pull through this , there’s no other way
We have so many more memories to make Dear God I’m begging you,  Please let it be your will to let her stay:
I can’t see me doing life without my best friend by my side
Lord I pray to you give her strength through all these tears I have cried :
I know you can make miracles happen so if you have any to spare
Please use it on my best friend Dear God for I don’t know what I would do without her there.

I found a new friend today
She’s Beautiful and funny in every way
Her heart is pure and intentions are  good
Only one flaw I have found and that’s she doesn’t give herself as much credit as she should.
She sees things just as they are and not scared to call them out
I wonder if she knows her worth is exactly what a true friend is all about
Her roads have been a struggle but she stands firm in her belief
God sent her to me in the nick of time as we found friendship through grief.
I hope she understands how she touched my heart in so many ways
Most people I meet I’m not concerned if they go away but this one lord is special to me and I pray to you she stays.

I will never forget the day you came into this world
The second you opened your eyes it was love at first sight
They say the love of a grandchild is unlike any other , ide have to say they were right.
Becoming your Mimi on that day changed my life in more than one way
You have brought so much joy to my life I miss watching you run and play
Fifteen years old my time has flown by
So many years I watched you grow and so many more I have missed
When I think of everything I have missed it hurts me deep inside
I just hope that you always know how much I love and miss you
Happy Birthday Mimis baby boy, may all your wishes come true

State of shock transitioned into sadness
Emotions like a clown only there was no smiling only silence of my own thoughts acting as if it were a mime.
Within a split second of his voice speaking to me
I was baffled by my own tongue running words right back but never whispering a sound.
Surely he was just , wait no he wasn’t he was and he did and he said
Words I never dreamed to come from my soul mate,  my best friend my love
Now the torture of my burning heart and my spinning head
Knowing with my every thought I will never forget the hateful things he said
Make them go away
All those hateful words
Once they flow from your lips , they are forever here to stay

Once upon a time in this world that once was,
There was laughter of children playing in the street
Their faces weren’t covered with anything but a smile
Church doors were open for service
Education wasn’t an option as to teach in our homes
We had no social distancing or stand 6 feet apart
We spent our holidays as a family
There were no laws to remove our freedom as it has come to be
For all the generations to come will never experience what life was like when we were the land of the free.