Clouds spread in shapes above my face,
Where the grass had morphed into pillows.
Not much thought tread through my mind,
During that beautifully sought quiet time.
To my side spread out a collection of trees,
Rustling against the breeze and calling me.

I never payed much attention to the sound,
Until the canvas was totally free of clouds.
Curiosity clenched it's hand over mine,
Without resistance we followed the noise.
The sun began to chase the horizon,
But there was a light not much further.

My pace quickened trying to find,
That strange glow in the dark forest.
Time never once crossed my mind,
I had no recollection or measurement,
Of how long I had been chasing the light.
All I knew was that I would bask in it.

The sun never rose again,
I never left that forest.
The glow teases me still,
As if I hadn't realized.
My legs never tire,
And I've no need to breathe.

Perhaps I can't be understood,
Despite the blatant simplicity.
Has it been a curse the whole time?
Have I been blind and wrong?
All I know is what I feel,
And everything I feel kills me.

This voyage is a challenge,
I've felt brittle a long while.

There's a longing that's been there,
Since I could even remember.
I've been left alone for so long,
Finding normalcy in my bubble.
All I know is what I feel,
And everything I feel kills me.

Loneliness tastes like pavement,
Licked that time I fell,
Hard onto my face.

That time I tried to pretend,
That I was exactly the same,
As those sad boys around me.

I was the saddest of them all,
Angry and eager to fall,
With no one to help me.

Bandages removed with haste,
Love quickly turned to waste,
I took notes and grew.

Overtaken by an opaque fog,
I conjured for protective purposes.
Spreading further than was casted,
I tried to grow in the darkness.

Years collected like fireflies,
Shaken and angry in a jar.
Lost and hungry for vengeance,
Rage fizzled into longing.

The fog is starting to subside,
The shock is briskly setting in.
Wasted years dancing behind me,
And I can see the sun rising.

From ashtrays I rise,
With a cigarette smile.
My circles are smoke,
Small and fading.

Heart heavy,
Sinking quickly,
Sick feeling.

Pursed lips drinking,
Sweet ignorance.
Dancing blissfully,
Tantalizing, tingly.

Heart heavy,
I'm dreaming,
Sick feeling.

Birthed by hatred,
Burning forever.
Fizzled but returned,
In a cloud of smoke.

Bright light attracts the bugs at night,
So I got smart and dimmed my glow.
Barely noticeable to untrained eyes,
I just simply glide through the day.
A little less unimpressed at sunset,
Watching all my circles shrink.  

It can get a little lonely here,
But the past comes to remind me;

Sleeping with dogs can give you fleas,
So I adopted a no animal policy.
I haven't had an itch in ages,
But I miss the companionship.
It can get a little lonely here,
but at least I have no bugs.

Amber eyes glisten
Tall drink of water,
Serial killer smile,
Wind ****** hair.

Confident grin,
Red intense stare,
Charming laugh,
Machine gun quirk.

Deep thoughts,
Brooding pose,
Bigger nose,
Tall bones.

Terribly funny,
Awfully lovely,
Incredibly loving,
Serial killer smile.