A microscopic drop of red
In a place no human eye can see
Erased the blackboard of my mind
Of all the words that make me, me.
I’m left here with chalk in hand
Trying hard to bridge the gaps
Hoping to connect the strands
And find myself again, perhaps.
I reach for words and they don’t come -
Simple words used every day.
I substitute less perfect ones
And laugh embarrassement away.
There is a word for what this is:
Lethologica it’s called.
I have it written on my arm
In case it needs to be recalled.
Thesaurus is my new best friend
Where I find the words I need
That are now locked away from me
An unexpected deep brain bleed.
My hand won’t write like it once did
The letters shrink and grow at will
I practice grade school penmanship
But write at third grade level still.
My balance is not what it was
My hands are clumsy paws
Too much saliva wets my chin
And no none knows the cause.
Yet life goes on and I do too
I offer what I can
Perhaps my words will help help someone
To take a braver stand.
ljm
Still trying to recover from a little bitty stroke on New Years Eve. Slow going.