JasFow

JasFow Sep 2017

I want to see your smile everyday
keep that upward glance to me
you want to cry
the pain is too much,
what are the options?
one or two, that'll be with you
not understanding whats happening
where do I go from here
been lost for weeks
only words of others calm my raging thoughts
days pass without feeling your warmth
craving your hands
anywhere
everywhere
lips to hold my thoughts
caught on the fact that I need your kiss
bite my bottom pink lip
sing a song of heart and fear
reality is what I need to hear
do you want a me+you
or choose to let me grow
i'm trapped by your love
take off the ring
and let me hear you sing to me
edges of your mouth turned up
shakes and a shiver runs up my spine
every time you smile.

Until next time

#smile #kiss #love #giveup #bewithme

JasFow Sep 2017

When They Look

Green eyes
Speckled with lies
Trying to hide the truth
Sundresses above the knee
Trying to catch an eye
Crooked smile with gapped front teeth
Charming all who see
Dyed hair
Black underwear
That shows when the wind blows high
Freckles hidden under foundation
Lipstick that's too bright
Hightops
Unmatched socks
Old enough to be anything
Still choosing her youth
Cuts that have healed into scars
Blend into the pale
Skin that's soft to the touch
No one knows how she loves
Always gazing at men
That can never be hers
She falls for every heart
Look again and see if you see the same girl

What do you see?

#lost

JasFow Sep 2017

Ripped Scripts

Remembering the words I memorized to myself last night
I can't seem to put them together in the right order now
Somehow I thought I'd be able to recite those words to you
Without losing my voice and having to cough it back up
But just one look in your eyes and all is lost again
I want you to know how much you mean to me
How the fear I have of this world doesn't compare to my feelings for you
No matter how many tears I have at night
Your smile to me makes my body feel light
I worry too much about what you think about me
Am I just the little girl you saw across the room?
Playing games that made you skip and grin against your will
Or did I change after the first image popped in your mind of me
Bare legs, large top, never wishing for this to stop
You asked me if I was happy and I ripped my mental script I wrote
I told you, " I love you"
Because that line will never change

The same scene plays over and over in my mind.
I hope I get to love you the way we want

#love #broken #innocent #lost #fear #hope #takenheart

JasFow Aug 2017

Caught

She read our words \
Couldn't hear our thoughts
How you hold me so tightly in your mind
Kissing in our dreams to songs no one else hears
Months passed freely loving the images we made up
Us far away in a castle
Keeping warm by the heat from our desires
/ She wasn't meant to know

Nothing is easy anymore, but we keep trying...

#love #affair #dreams #truth #wishing #falsehope

JasFow Aug 2017

Mine Tonight

My Dear ******,
You held my brain high before I saw into your eyes
My lips demand a bite when you laugh
Everyday, wearing a new dress to impress us all
Flats, sandles, heels, barefoot on the ground asking to be picked up
Spun and handled with worn, warm hands
But you look away when someone admires
As everyone does, they want the love your heart hold to be theirs
I want to kiss your top and love your bottom soul too
You look younger than you are and you wear it well
Told me from the beginning, you don't feel the same as others
That I definitely could tell
Just when I think this is all a dream that a bad man keeps
Our lips share a moment
And I'm reminded why I was warned about you

From the other side, its just as strange.

#young #love #temptation #forever #dreams