How could we ever find our own purpose in life,
when we busy ourselves trying to find true love?

There a man who i love so much
There a man who i like so much
There a man who have brighter smile so much
There a man who have beautiful eye
There a man who have deep voice
There a man who i missed so much,
But....
           That's man who can't be mine

It is impossible for me to love,
to give myself to someone completely,
to care about someone unconditionally.
Because if you do this,
they will leave.
Maybe in five days
or maybe in 50 years.
But they will leave.
How do you know who you are when they are gone?
How do you deal with the fact that you cared about someone so much, and then it was over in a flash?

I long for this type of love,
but I also hope that it never does.

I hold still in a room of people looking for one face,
There was never a cat or mouse who more enjoyed the chase,
Our friends have no idea the things that happen between us,
The ***** thoughts and actions brought to life dripping with lust,
I asked you once why did you start this merger of two broken souls,
You laughed before responding you might be ****** up enough to make my heart whole,
I laugh dance and flirt with other guys giving a show for only you to see,
I walk around the room pretending not to notice the intense jealous eyes that fuel me,
I can hear the harsh demand of your voice in my head all the time,
It's screaming reminding me of why I am yours and you are mine,
The game is too much fun to make the truth real with spoken words,
The energy of our secrets keeps our attraction propelling forwards,
In the light I am a free succubus enchanting all but in the dark I am a  captured spirit bound by chains labeled yours.

One day you'll realise ,
I'm not the one who's vindictive,
They're my thoughts which are igniting.

One day you'll realise,
My short replies didn't mean that I had nothing to say,
I was just scared of my thoughts being judged.

One day you'll realise,
I wasn't really shy,
I was just afraid of opening up.

One day you'll realise,
All those mean messages which I had sent you,
I was double hurt while writing it..and I could have been more mean but, I loved you.

One day you'll realise,
I am rarest of the stars,
And by the time, I'll be gone.

I think i am a better ghost than a human being....