Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Artemis
anxiety
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Artemis
i'm not being hurt
i'm not in any real pain

but i can't stop feeling this
hollowness

i think i'm broken or something.
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Paige
Too soon
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Paige
Before we riddle our tongues with love
Do you even like me at all ?
Many people want love before they even like someone
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Liana
I was sitting alone at lunch
As one does everyday
Thinking
listening
And looking around
Until I see this group of girls come my way

Are they coming toward me?
I wonder in a panic
As they get closer and closer
Giggling and chatting
With their pretty little smiles

"Hey, do you want to sit with us?"
One of them asks
I pause a moment in disbelief before I answer
"Yes, of course!"

"Oh my god, your hair is so pretty"
One of them says
"Thank you so much!" I say as everyone is still gushing

I sit down with them not really knowing how to feel
Some minutes pass
And I realize
They're are actually, kind of nice?!


Still not like me at all
Wearing their makeup and doing their dances
But I decide that it's okay
And it doesn't really matter

Tomorrow
I will not sit alone

I hope only
That this will be better
At least
Won't be worse
I think I'm happy about this
I recall from some time ago
a pink plastic tea set
a white plastic rocking chair
and a yellow plastic pony
with blue plastic hair,
     which
was impossible to untangle
except for with the green plastic brush
that belonged to my blonde barbie doll
out of her plastic vanity cabinet
beneath her plastic vanity mirror,
     which
she checked her makeup in
before meeting her plastic boyfriend
in his plastic van
to go to a plastic diner
that served plastic pizza,
     which
was really just a sticker
on a tiny plastic plate
that would get lost in the bottom
of my plastic toybox,
     which
had a plastic lid
that was also my sailboat
that brought me to a plastic castle
with a plastic princess
who had the prettiest plastic eyes
and the most elaborate plastic dress
and the shiniest plastic crown,
     which
was the envy of all the plastic women
in the entire plastic kingdom,
     which
was really just a plastic castle
surrounded by an enchanted plastic forest
filled with furry plastic creatures
all atop a clear plastic box,
     which
held the plastic dishes
and plastic glasses
and plastic food
in case a feast should be thrown
for an unexpected plastic guest
from a plastic kingdom in the far east,
     which
was really just a plastic plate
placed on the plastic-coated windowsill,
     from which
I would peer into the blue sky
through broken plastic binoculars
while standing on a yellow and green plastic step stool,
     which
when turned upside down
became not simply a make-shift plastic sailboat,
but a glorious, luxury plastic cruise liner
for my pretty plastic dolls

     and I would board my toybox lid
     and we would sail into a perfect plastic horizon

     which
was really just a white plastic baby gate
that kept me from tumbling
into the world downstairs
where things are wooden
and glass
and cloth
but not plastic

for plastic is synthetic
and plastic is superficial
and plastic looks bad
against gilded wallpaper

but plastic is cheaper
and plastic is safer
and plastic is durable
and childhood is plastic
Cassidy Claire Johnson © 2012.
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Liana
How dare I let myself feel sad?

Have you every heard the someone say
"Someone always has it worse"?
They're trying to help you, but it always ends up making me feel terrible
If someone else has it so bad
My problems just seem silly
So how dare I feel sad?

If I'm mad that my dad is crazy
Someone's dad is dead

If school is stressful and I'm freaking out
Some don't get to go because they are working to be able to buy clothes

If I am crying because I can't stop picking my thumb and it hurts
Some people lost their hand in traumatic ways

If I got in to a fight with my mom
Some people would do anything just to see there's again

Someone always has it worse
And that thought is anything but comforting
Now I feel bad for feeling sad
Whenever I feel sad
I also feel guilty
And bad
Because others
See my  difficult problems
And think
Pfft, easy
So how dare I let myself feel sad?
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Stained Glass
I'm not heartless, I've just learned to use my heart less
#alala!@#$%^&*Z(){}|~<><><><><><><><><><><><><><<
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Hanzou
When there are no words to capture my regrets,
My longing, my anger—all the colors of emotion,
When the day arrives that my letters fade away,
And I lose the words, the sentences, the will to create.

The girl I once poured my words out for,
who was the heart behind every line, every verse—
she isn’t mine anymore.
Now these poems fall silent, with no one left to read them.
hindi ko kayang umibig muli.
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Jamie Henderson
I am wounded,
I am scorned,
but here I exert my pain
in permanent ink,
and here in my words, it will stay;
the red webs in loose skin,
an arm of scars;
a tome to tell stories
of depression,
for it seems that love withers
and tears stain.
Writing is where all my emotion goes and where it lives.
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Kristine
No. 10
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Kristine
Anxiety wraps,  
Tight around my fragile soul,  
Like a coat too small,  
A lover who won't love back,  
A fire that won't warm my heart.
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Liana
Ugh
 Nov 2024 Nobody
Liana
Ugh
Tears
Headaches
Homework for hours
Trying so hard
Just to be heard

Trying to make friends
Trying to be social
So difficult when your not normal
The things you have to tell yourself
To keep yourself together
"It's okay
Your okay
Everything's okay"
All lies

Concerned looks from your mother
As you say that yes, today was the same
You can tell she's trying not to cry
Guilty

Procrastination
Lack of motivation
Working so hard for this presentation
And for everything else
Even when it all gets deleted in my head immediately after

The crowded hallways
You can barely squeeze your way through
They're so loud
And full of people
Most yelling
Some banging on lockers
Jammed
Like my head

Painted spirals on the wall
Not as real as mine
Random
Next page