Since I was Born, I was sick.
The World had tried to choke out my Light since before I had Life. Since before I could fully think, it never wanted me around.
So much loss and pain just for one child, so today I must use the Life I gained to throw everything I have back at The World.
I refuse to let my Life be choked out by A World that never wanted to see me Rise. I shall Stand and Fight to make The World better.
Ever since I was a little Black Boy I have watched myself die.
It started with Trayvon, my big brother who died trying to Live Life and buy a snack. I died again with Tamir Rice, my little brother died for being Youthful and for being a child. And I kept dying and watching brothers, sisters, cousins, uncles, fathers, and mothers of mine all die. I was forced to watch my Family die. I have seen myself die in all of these people over and over again. Whether we Lived in the same era or not. I saw myself assassinated and silenced by the people who were supposed to help me bring Change over and over again. I saw myself beaten for sitting down in the wrong place, I saw myself marching to make a difference. I have seen myself choked out, shot in the streets, lynched, and more.
I see my face on all of these men who have died for no reason, I always believe I’m next. Ever since I was a young boy.
Even now as an “adult” I never know how much time I have left. There are days when I have fun and Live every single piece of Life and think, “Today could be my last day of Life”. There are other days where it’s not as great and I think the same thing.
My father turns 50 soon and knowing what I know about Black men, I am scared. I turn 20 soon and knowing what I know about Black men, I am beyond horrified.
On some days I can’t handle knowing all of this and on other days I know if I don’t handle this there won’t be enough people to step up who want to drastically change This World that has been choking me out.
I just wish that my Black Life Mattered so I could Live each day without fear.

Life has unexpected turns, truly anything can happen. It is not over until you can be happy.
There is not a guideline for happiness that you can find online. You must find it in your world. A world perceived and made by you, a world that is hidden.
The facade must be taken down, or you will lose yourself in a world of standards. You can not find happiness in someone's world, you cannot find it in science or religion.
But the world you plan, construct, and live in.
This world will have happiness, peace, and above all Love that will never die.

Since the first time I saw you, I was changed. I wanted better for everyone, I wanted better for me. A story I've told a million times. The story that could never be rewritten. A tale so vivid, I have no doubts it was real. My reality was changed because of you. And now the story continues, with a new path I must follow.

Time has frozen. Time is finished. Time has started. Time could never defeat me, it only holds back the inevitable. So I will prosper knowing time is neither a foe nor an ally. You taught me that. I'm thankful for that revelation.

People come and they will sometimes leave. It's a concept as concrete and old as the human race. I met you for a reason and a season. And you opened my eyes into a world that was once forgotten about. I had the world grasped within my left hand, and your hand held onto my right hand. It felt like nothing could stop me. Until you let go of my hand, and the world dissipated from my grasps. I had seen a place of power, I hope never to go to again. You showed me the worst of humanity's best.

From the first day we met, my reaction could only be called deep infatuation. It means I wanted you, but I truly wanted to Love you like nobody has before. You filled every thought of mine, you and I were close. Closer than close. You were everything I've ever wanted, I could never truly describe how I felt about you. You taught me lessons about different personalities. And how the world can never be simple. It can never be clear. It will always be a mystery. Your Love will always be a mysterious force, that only the strong can harness. For your beauty could conquer a galaxy.