i want to touch you
in more ways than one

run my fingers through your hair
then trace them down your spine
gently pressing my lips
to your manly divine

but it’s never enough
there are still parts of you
I cannot grasp

like the memories of her
embedded in your brain
and the scars on your heart
that resemble her name

these are the untouchable places
that i will never reach
these are the insecurities
that i will never speak

I spent last night
Crunching numbers

10
Times you led me on

9
Nights we stayed up talking

8
Weeks since you decided I wasn’t worth it

7
Crushed up poems on the floor of my room

6
Outfits thrown aside to make sure I look my best

5
Days I spent trying to get over you

4
Friends that know what we did

3
3 a.m FaceTime calls

2
Coats of mascara

1
Big regret

you remind me of the sun
burning and brightly beaming
but if i get too close, i’ll simply
melt

but i was always the one to take risks.

Your mind — Full of itself
Your heart — Lying
With all ambition but a distraction
Don't try of you will lose yourself
On such small things
Relying