I wish you made me happier
I felt trapped
I felt lost in my own head
And you made me feel so dead

I was made to feel like it was all my fault
I was always wrong
It made me feel so drained
Now you've left me with all the pain

We once ran through fields of daisy's
Together all alone
On a cold summer afternoon
Staring up at the sky waiting for the moon

But the moon never came
You were the one who drained me
You scared it away
And made the afternoon forever stay day

The clouds are my only companion
For you left me all alone
You and the robins and dove's
Left me with this fake, dead, love

Your heart beat was music to my ears as I lay my head on your chest
Your voice was my warmth and shelter in the rain
Your lungs filled the air with hope
But now there's nothing left but pain

I feel paralysed and numb
And stupid and so dumb
For trusting you with my heart
And letting you turn my life so dark

Your heart beat will no longer be music to my ears
Your voice will no longer shelter me from the rain
Your lungs won't fill the air with hope
But all that is left will remain as nothing but pain

I need to make something clear
I need to elucidate
I need to let you know
I need to let you hear

The words I have to say
I hope they stay dear
The lies I have to tell
I hope you don't hear

I love you
Is all I ever say
And I don't know if it's a habit
Because I say it every day

I just want to know the truth
I can't stand not knowing what sits between me and you
I don't want the lies
I just want to know what hold u back bound and tied

You see the difference between you and I
Is I don't know the truth
And you hold all the lies
And you need to let them loose

I hold everything inside
And I'm full of rage
And my heart is a cage
And it's broken and so is my mind

The smile on my face is empty
The name I uphold is worthless
The stories I tell are depressing
I think I need a preachers blessing

I may not be religious
But I need some guidance
Maybe if I stare to the sky
Someone will hold my hand until I die

Bring it back
My mind snapped
I can't see my reflection
The poetry I write is made of all my conceptions

I think I need a therapy session
My anger is my only weapon
I need to take a minute to breath
I need my thoughts to all leave

I need my anti depressants
I think I need anger regression
My mind is full of tricks and lies
And the demons lurk in the back of my mind

I might need to train my anger
My whole life is a movie full of cliffhangers
Casting stones in my direction
Making my life their possession

Hollywood movie star
Wanting to smash up fancy cars
My problems not dire
My issues making me a liar

Counsellor trying to give me feedback
I don't really need that
Trying to keep the watchers interested
But I cant be arsed with the drama you invest in

It's starting to get old
Hearing my friends all say
My head isn't sick
It's almost every day

They don't understand my trauma
They don't understand my past
They don't understand my future
And that they could be the person to see me last

I say depressing stuff
And make jokes about my life
They know that I'm not joking
But they wouldn't tell me to put down the knife

The last breath I could take wouldn't be funny
Yet my life would be made into a joke
I think I need to tell them
But it's hard to explain that I'm unable to cope

They think it's to be cool
But I need professional help
I've been put on medication
But I just want to melt