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I can't sleep
Everytime I remember your words
They snap and recoil
And hurt me awake
Next time when someone
Promises me forever
I'll just smile
Look them in the eyes and ask
How long is forever to you.
My name is Ashly (yes spelled without
the E)
I was born without a windpipe and was 3 months premature.
I underwent surgery for a tracheostomy and died on the operating table.
I was revived.
I was hooked up to many machines and my parents were told I wouldn’t live for more then 3 days...
If I would survive more then 3 days I would be hooked up to machines my whole life and be in a “vegetative state”
Doctors told my parents and family “I would never live to see my 18th birthday.”
I lived in the hospital for almost 2 years.
At age 2, I myself, ripped out my tracheostomy (which could have killed me)
My family rushed me to children’s hospital and the doctors decided to let the hole in my neck close and see what happens.
My doctors don’t know how I made it through the night or days after.
I went home after a couple weeks and that’s when I started living my life as a “normal” child.
All of my sisters were involved in dance classes, my parents( doctors didn’t agree) enrolled me in to classes.
        THATS WHERE MY LIFE CHANGED
Dance became my passion, along with gymnastics and musical theatre.
Something my family, doctors or even myself never thought I would EVER do.
On my 18th birthday it was a mixture of emotions.
I made a milestone that no one said I would ever see.
I competed in dance and gymnastics until I was 19 years of age as well as did over 60 musicals at my local theatre company.
I never thought I would ever have a boy love me because I had “too many problems” or even get married for that matter.
Fast forward, I am now almost 33 ( June .11th is my birthday)
Married for almost 8 years to my best friend.
Happy doesn’t even cover what I feel everyday waking up next to my love.
We may not have a “family” of our own but we are happy and in love over the moon with one another.

So why did I just ramble on with this?
Because I’m a MIRACLE and a SURVIVOR.
Even though I don’t remember much from my childhood and what I and my family had to endure, I have been fighter since my first breath.

I’M A SURVIVOR and I’VE MADE IT....
Just a little insight to my story. I left out some details but y’all get the idea. Hope this helps to feel why I write and my story.
unspoken words,
years of silence

it is time
to spread my wings

to embrace;

i am transgender
I have
been sober
for about
8 months.
Go me.
 Jan 2020 Candra Creviston
ymmiJ
time and time again
ticking away in that head
making you cuckoo
Hi, saw movie last week, it made an impression, so I wrote this one.
Good movie by the way called Just Mercy.

DANCING IN THE BREEZE (Johnny D)

I lie in death rows fear
a place of no human dignity
the injustice that put me here
waiting for the horror
old sparky, the electric chair

in my prison cell
I close my eyes
when I look up to the sky
I can see the trees
dancing in the breeze

a ****** off the street
arrested because I'm black
treated like a piece of meat
in a white man´s world
justice trades Alabama style

with all hope now lost
he came an Harvard Angel
a savior who took no costs
into that hornets’ nest
our brother in search of truth

their cold hearts I see
my appeal was truth in sight
freedom shone for Johnny D
these men who lied
send them down deaths row

in my freedom cell
I open up my eyes
when I look up to the sky
I can see the trees
dancing in the breeze
sometimes
I have to
get rid
of thoughts
that I can't even
tell my best friends

that's why
the moon
is one of my
most trusted ones
also check out my other poems!  :)
love can hurt so bad it can make you blue
it can make you cry break your heart in two
feel that you have lost everything you knew
your mind is in a whirl dont know what to do

you feel so alone with sadness and despair
love that you once knew now no longer there
picking up the pieces from your broken heart
feeling you once had now so far apart

the world that you once knew now so dark and grey
the sunshine in your life now so far away
you must give it time to take away the pain
as times passes  by you can love again
It can never be the same again

DISREPAIR

how can you repair
a broken vase
to make it whole again

how can you repair
a broken wing
so she can fly to nest?

when it's broken
it will never be the same again
no repair
can make it whole again

how can you repair
a broken heart
so it can carry on?

how can you repair
a broken heart
with scars that never heal?

when it's broken
it will never be the same again
no repairs
can make it whole again
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