Ah, yeah, there it is...
It's been years; too long.
The memory has faded,
But the desire remains.
It's that feeling I've missed;
Such sweet, silent songs,
Such emotions debated,
No more clouds in my brain.
Just a painless, empty bliss.
I can smile, and fantasize,
And feel the warm sun's kiss
As I breathe and close my eyes.
Such a blanket never sewn,
Can bring me this warmth.
Confidence I've never known,
And some feeling of worth.
Finally, I belong!
I'm here! Can you see me?
Nothing's wrong; not now,
I can just stand here, and BE.
Tonight, when they watch me,
Their eyes open in wonder,
I shall stand and deliver,
And quiver no more.
I am here. I exist.
And I am not afraid.
A poem I've been waiting years to write. Today, I deliver a presentation for my master's class. Wish me luck.