You think you save me but I'm too far gone
Long to be my Mr.Right but you are wrong
You want to dry flood of tears flowing from my eyes
Today you are the reason that I cry
Let me drown in the deep by myself
I'm too proud to accept your help
You say you adore but I can't ascertain
What is going on in your brain
I am flawed but I push my will
To improve though the climb is uphill
Be better for you
Who you deserve
In return do things to get on my nerves
It's not intentional but it doesn't matter
Selfishness causes thoughts to scatter
I thought my trust would be safe in your hands
You were someone who cares and understands
But proved my expectations to be a mirage
Suppose the real you was actually camouflaged
A creature so jealous skin is bright green
Arms so protective feel squished between
When cradling me I feel fragile and small
That's not who I am at all
I do not need anyone else to get by
Alone don't feel guilty for how I get high
I enjoy conversations and I crave your touch
But won't allow you to become my crutch
If we reach conflict this early on
Imagine how worse it will be further along
Dancing a thin line between freedom and forgiveness
Each time I make a decision
Second guess
My instinct screams
"Run!"
Fast as I can
My emotions whisper to stay where I am
In past judgement has led me to make the wrong choice
I'm not sure of the two which is the right voice
Deep down feel certain this will not work out
My irrational attraction fills me with doubt
I long to deliver a perfect paradise
In reality love is a roll of the dice
It's a gamble
I happen to have the worst luck
Regardless of odds
Relationship is ******
It is pointless to waste time and choose
Either way
Both kind of lose

Go crazier and crazier the longer you stay
Cry all night
Sleep half the day
You remain by side throughout the upheaval
You are capable of delivering me from evil
Something is not right between us
Cannot place my finger
On the imperfection
The air of frustration lingers
So I am caught in between your feelings and my own
Thoughts collide within
Creating cyclone
Moving in mind with force
Trail of mayhem in it's wake
Causing already hurting head to violently throb and ache
As I ponder what to do time tumbles out of my hands
My reflexes are too slow to catch before it lands
Clock is never on my side whether I turn left or right
No matter which way I examine
Predicament not black and white
Waiting for next error so I have a good excuse
The longer it takes the more I ask myself
"What is the use?"
You deserve to be with somebody equally devoted
Why the truth I'm telling you is not sugar-coated
I wish you would come to this conclusion without my aid
You are simply too optimistic I'm afraid
I hate doing this to you but I feel it is more fair
Being straightforward with you than to leave you unaware
Your heart may feel broken
It will only be for awhile
Promise that without me you'll again learn how to smile