I wish I could figure  out what is my dream,
What is the most important thing and what is most beautiful colour theme,
I don't know didn't had a thought about them,
I don't know how many times i have better thoughts about self ,
It's always was to seeing others happy and ending up praying up for everyone,
Either is it for my enimes or my loved ones ,
It gets hard to write about someone for whom I hardly have a feeling about ,
Trying to geues who's inside so when I'll know someday I'll give him a shout ,
That I know you now ,
And write a book for that inner self without any doubt.

Yeah it's over!  that's what you said right?
Now you see what I can do just by tonight,
No more reading our conversations,
Will stop adoring every photo i have ours in any folder  in every location,
Even those ones which I got printed ,
From the black n brown nostalgic film tinted,
Tinted in memories which I can never forget,
I'll try to consider that the person except me in the photos is dead ,
No more looking for your last seen on WhatsApp,
Will unstar all the best conversations we had ,
Stop remembering every word you said to me,
Even they are not so good or extremely sweet,
I'll stop writing for you,
No more poems nor a single thought even if have to stop thinking I'll do,
I will move on I guess but I know I lost by best friend,
I'll try to do all of the above things I said ,
You left me! may be it's just a bad dream  may be it's not the truth,
I wish you could understand these feelings not all of them but you didn't tried for few.

Do you know how beautifully you get all of me?
Every feeling and the pain you get them too obviously,
As much obvious like the universal truth of sun rises from the East,
Many times it gets harder to know how I feel,
But you already know what is going on in this deep sea,
Deep sea made of billions of thoughts in it,
I know your situations your endless beautiful deeds of too,
I know am a fool everyday either directly or indirectly I've hurted you,
If you hurted me ever I don't think so you did,
Then it couldn't be you it could have be me,
I can't even say sorry for most of them you know ?
Because you just forgivie me before releasing what I did though,
I know I should have known of  my limits and revised them ,
But it gets harder to do it when I see your deep dark pupils; Every strength for denial that I feel something I lost strength,
And I know you care for me so much and adore too,
You do many things I am not able to thank you,
I used to say it's just time am trying to be humble ,
But you do all of kindness without even thinking how bad or good it can end or situations can stumble,
It shows the purity of heart ,
This is the one of the most aprreicable thing I noticed from start,
Words won't end that easily so I have to made them,
Don't worry I won't waste them,
Stacking up all your expectations,
Just relax am alright I'll deal with this hurricane with  all possible cautions.

Oh yes you don't belong to her and surely you never did,
I know there is a struggle doin it but you've to accept it,
Don't fall for seconds of  heavenly hallucinations,
You'll hit hard afterwards these potions ,
You know already that she got her man,
You're not the one why don't you understand,
Okay, there were of holding hands or intense scenes,
Just pretend they were just uneven chilled breeze,
Forget about them and just move on,
You know there is no reason goin through this storm,
Just get over it you know this way got wild turns and animals too,
Just stop right here because its not your way niether she belongs to you.

Stop putting his name in every phrase,
Stop describing that you belong to him in anyway,
The fake feeling that you're mine,
I love that I wanna live in it all the time,
Do you know what i love the most?
Your warm soft hands and I will save them from getting cold,
I need to gaze every in few minutes,
I do care but it's more than it and its intensity and have heights,
Uplifting you everytime that's what I try,
That's why when you do something stupid I just stop myself from scolding you: I just smile,
There is a beautiful soul inside,
It makes me lively just being near to you and by your side ,
Even if there's immense pain it will automatically subside ,
Just take a look of my view ,
You will get to know how amazing are  you,
Giving those stupid nicknames aren't just for fun,
I feel complete when you respond on them my just heart jumps,
And pumps harder when I smile ; you smile back ,
I try to find you & try to relate in every  beautiful track ,
The good bye hug is a sweet guesture by you,
When you do that for few seconds my mind blows and my eyes lost there hue,
Thus everything will be like fiction in future,
I know my fate ;I will try to cope but always smile while remembering how beautiful those days were.

Oh you came while am sad,
It's beautiful ; first lemme love you back ,
It's okay you don't have to be sorry about it ,
I'll be all right,
Lighting up candles in the room full of darkness of sin ,
You say what you how was your day ,
Sit down talk me you'll feel better for sure ; what you say ,
No am not lying does it look like I am,
May be because there are hundreds of things going underneath this warm man,
Have you heard about that fact ,
The person who keeps his feelings personal priorities at last ,
One who lands up getting everything messed up ,
Got devastated from inside & lands up ******* the roof of rust ,
And get the infection which is a slow poison,
Aah leave it you will be bored ;why is it so cold here ,
What is it ohh; it's the winter season .

It's not the depression that stabs everytime,
There are some more aspects from which am lagging behind,
"Emotions" this got the whole world inside,
According to it and situations a person loves or lie,
With myself I guess many elements are broken or left behind,
Because of quivering on path in time,
I can see & feel the worse happenings am not blind,
Being good & humble are becoming sediment like,
All of this so horrible ;I know the game of karma ,
Can't even love someone what if it's just a illusion like when you're high on ***** or *** ha,
So tired of these things going wrong,
Buy yeah have to live through it cuz life goes on.