Everybody acts like they do no harm
At the sight of the truth,
We say no that's not mine that's yours
What a showmanship

Gaslighting 101 should be a gen-ed course
Professor preach to me, watch out for the ones you care for
They will burn you alive
They will laugh while you turn into ashes and tears

All in the name of love,
I'll sin like a saint and bless like a sinner

Funny seeing you be upset with me
For not carrying your weight anymore
It was never mine to carry, and I don't mind you being upset
Because you never stopped to think,
oh, she's crushing under the weight,
I should carry my share

I'm not here for your convenience
I'm here to die we all are

All my best friends are losing their innocence
And I miss our innocence
Very much, very much so

All in the name of love,
I'll sin like a saint and bless like a sinner

Do you see me for who I am
Or do you see me
For who you want me to be?

I feel
As if I'm filled with black blood

We are all so
Tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny

I feel
As if I'm filled with black blood

I'm a hanged man I'm a fool

I feel
As if I'm filled with black blood

We are all so
Tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny

Do you see me for who I am
Or do you see me
For who you want me to be?

My blood is black

my hair
is stuck down in the drain
wetting my dress
and drying my veins

my skull
it grew in too late
making me spin
in a hellscape of hate

nothing's the same
and everything's great

my hands
are shedding their nails
waving goodbye
to blood on the trails

my legs
cannot hold their weight
my bones look the same
as the ones on my plate

nothings's the same
and everything's great

my chest
it knocks and it shakes
pinning me down
how low can it take

my corpse
should rot in a case
inside of the flesh
where I used to be safe

nothings the same
i'm going to faint

Akala ko hinahangaan lang kita
Akala ko okay na na kasama kita as barkada.
Yung tipong kahit ilang ako okay lang basta nandyan ka, okay lang basta nakikita kita.
Akala ko okay na na napapatawa mo ko sa mga biro mo
Akala ko okay lang kapag nalaman ko na in a relationship ka na

Pero akala ko lang pala.

Ngayong in a relationship ka na, hindi na kita matingnan ng daretso sa iyong mga mata.
Hindi na ko makatawa kapag inaasar ka o di kaya'y kapag nagbibiro ka.
Ayoko na. Akala ko okay na, ang sakit pala.

The collapsing tide lurks
with rogue waves
gathering energy,
swaying to the moon
until it returns to upend
the diligent castles
we’ve built of sand

Anxiousness drooped from the ear,
Fastened by a clip.

An uncomfortable feeling instilled in the bones,
Making up your frame.

Conversations,
Disapprovingly true.

The buzzing won’t stop,
Willingness would fall,
Until it’ll all stop,
For once and all.

Feeling uncomfortable in my own skin
I wish i could just rip it off
And breathe again
Its so tight
Im suffocating
I wish I could just
Change

ticcing in bed with a sore body is painful.

every position hurts

it’s nothing comfortable


good night

So when I say I have a weird feeling
It doesn’t mean that I want to do said thing
No
It means let’s do the opposite of said thing
I have been feeling like this since the first night back
I acted casual about it
Didn’t want to make a scene
I felt more uncomfortable there
Then I did when seeing my ex ask me to be their tour guide
It made me question
If you were listening to me at all
Clearly not
Because here we are
About to do said thing
That gave me this weird feeling
And you’re okay with that
Instead going with my idea…
You chose to change it for some odd reason
Now, let’s get something straight
I never question your changes
But in this moment…
I do
Like are we going out for us...or for someone else
If that is the case
Then I am going home
And I will cry because that weird feeling will return
Stronger than anything
Because not only are you okay with letting me have this feeling
You’re okay with me crying home alone
Which makes me question
Are we even friends?