Hello, it’s me again
It’s been awhile since I’ve heard from you
I’m sorry I said what I did
It’s just I don’t like to leave straight away
I liked your hands all over me
I wish you’d call me back
I’m sorry I don’t do one night stands
Do you like her more than me?
Is she what you fantasize about?
Give me just one more chance
I promise...you’ll like it
This is important I need you to call me back
I just took a test...
Please call me back
Why do you always send me to voicemail?
Your daughter needs you in her life.
She’s about to start kindergarten.
I’m going to put her on the phone
I miss you
Can I come over this weekend?
I promise I won’t spill juice on your girlfriends carpet again
Just give me a chance!
I love you
Hi dad, it’s me
It’s my 16th birthday.
Are you not going to come?
I just wish you’d come around more
I know things aren’t the way you planned but I’m your daughter too
I just wish you’d treat me like your other one
Anyways I just wanted to remind you it was my birthday.
Call mom back so she stops freaking out
It’s your daughter’s graduation.
Are you not even going to show?
For 18 years I’ve begged you to just stick around for the main parts
Why can’t you remember you have another daughter!
I’m 28 now
I have my dream job
And guess what?
I didn’t need anything from you.
I’ve waited around my whole life thinking I needed your validation
Turns out I can do it on my own
I’ve become so successful
And I’m proud to say I’m very strong
You taught me nothing
But I didn’t need to learn from you
I’m an amazing teacher
I’m stronger than you’ll ever be
This is the last time you’ll hear from me.
it's like falling
6 feet below
and n o t being able
to crawl out of the hole
you've dug yourself
it's like sleeping
for fifteen hours
and still not feeling
it's like failing
all of your classes
because you can't focus
on anything let alone
this foreign math that no one
can teach you
it's like ******* random dudes
because you can't actually
and let's face it
the real reason why you can't is because
you like girls instead
keep covering up the fact
of how you aren't actually
because no one ******* cares
i think i forgot my place in the universe
happiness is fleeting and i knew that once
so why do i chase after things that are finite?
why do i conquer and destroy everything in my path?
the world is supposed to be easy for the taking
but the world is taking me
i overdose on everything
i've never known when enough is enough
gluttony, lust, rage
the trifecta rule i always break
everyone is wrapped up in their own universe
struggling with their own problems
The sun is shining and in this field it's warm
But then I think of your eyes
How they were brown like dirt
And suddenly I'm thankful for the heated grass I'm lying on
It shields me from the regret
Of dirt brown eyes and hands fluid like water
Those hands were the unbecoming of me
But then again I can't blame you completely
I was the one who looked down at the dirt and saw you
Instead of staring at the sun ahead of me
I have healed though
I'm surrounded by green grass and enveloped in the sun
Perfect conditions for growth
i came to you when it was all dark
and i thought you led me out of the woods
turns out you just took me deeper in,
and didn't even leave a bread trail
im not saying i miss you
(although i do)
you were just always there
not as a friend or lover
but as someone who would help me forget
in the beginning i told you and myself that this was temporary
no strings attached
but now we are stuck in a cats cradle
except youve cut the ties
and my subconscious is still flailing for the ropes that you dangle
the big question i guess im asking is
did you use me?
or did i use you?
because in the beginning i called the shots
but now im all used like a washed up disney channel star
i chase after boys dressed as men
cloaked in good looks and half smirks
they don't even have to be nice
all it takes is a look my way and i'm falling for them
these are the boys who use every ounce of girls like me up
they eat our souls and harvest our happiness
and then once we're drained of everything good and sunny
they leave for another star to ***** out
but for some reason i love these boys
and they sure as hell don't love me
So you've met The One
You two are perfect for each other right?
So why are you still just friends?
Why is it only you stumbling to find common ground?
Holding conversations shouldn't be this hard
He looks through you while you look up from your knees
Dear God are you not enough
Even when you're giving him everything he only throws you scraps
some days the sun doesn't shine
and on these days i realize that i am a silhouette of a person
i realize that i am more lost than i think
on these days i just want to feel something, anything
on these days
i crave the touch of people who just want to use all of me up
i crave the high of things that can take my life
on these days i'm imploding like my subconscious wants
but other days the sun is so vibrant it burns to look at
and on these days i realize i have so much potential
i realize i'm still finding myself
on these days i feel happiness so pure
on these days
i crave the touch of someone who would make me feel wanted
i crave living life in sobriety
on these day i'm pushing through a sea of setbacks
but through all days life is still life
i still have plenty of sights to see
plenty of songs to listen to
plenty of kisses to steal
and plenty of moments that lead up to me becoming the best me
Look up, not down.
One day after all of the words have left our lips
After our hands have stopped touching everything they can
After our noses breathe in every good and bad scent
After our ears have heard their last melody
There will be nothing left
No one will remember who you were
They won't remember what you could have done
What happened after
Or who you became because of it
So live every moment given to you
Forget about the minuscule things that keep you up at night
Leave behind the people who make you feel like you're less than them
We're all just passing through
No one dies with anything to carry out of the world
No one leaves an impression that will truly last forever
Which means no one is better than you
Find the love that the movies go on about
Live the dreams you thought would never come true
Listen to that one song that you scream to with your windows rolled down
Stop thinking about doing it and ******* do it babe
Advice I wish I followed
Do I live in your mind
Do I fester in your heart
Or has it gotten better with time?
I have grown without you
I'm now a tall sunflower in a field full of daisies
You'll always be a weevil to me
I hope one day you'll love someone as much as you do yourself
"how do i explain it to him"
the explanation will go over his head
you'll have to be bland and watery with your words
you'll say "i love you but i can't do this anymore"
he'll look expectantly at you
but all he'll understand is that you are giving up
not that he has emotionally beaten you to the ground
not that he will never be able to love you as much as you do him
and it will feel like a long f
your adrenaline will frighten you
but what you must learn is that
love is give and receive
not give and give and give until you have nothing left
he won't understand that
he'll argue that you're just too demanding
but isn't that always his response?
to blame you?
Leave him and find yourself.
— The End —