I'll never know which way her head turns first when she hears my voice, or what stupid jokes make her start laughing all embarrassed, idk what it feels like to hug her, idk what kinds of foods she likes to snack on, idk what she looks like when she's tired, idk what random moments can make her smile, idk what she shakes her head at when she overhears a conversation, idk if she leans on a desk before she gets up or if she scoots out her chair first, idk if she picks her nails, idk if she lips when she gets an injury from basketball, idk what her hands feel like in mine, idk what shampoo she uses and what her hair smells like and how short she is compared to me so i can kiss her head and- i could go on. But it's the little things, you know? You two have that and I don't and it makes me sad

Nothing, Everything, and Time

If Only
A thousand words I wish to say
But only silence is heard
Feelings to share, a message convey
But I don't say a word
A ton of things I would do
To show how much I care
So much I would give to you
If...I really dared

All the thoughts I think of you
Deeply held within
Concealed completely without a clue
It'll look, as it's always been

If only I could but show
How you make me feel
If you would only know
What I can't reveal
If only you knew the ache I felt
The day you shut me out
The pain and sadness that I dealt
When we walk the parting route
If only you knew the memories it brought
When I saw something you'd like
Everything about you I never forgot
Hidden in my heart so tight
A thousand word "If Onlys" fill my mind
Wishing you felt this way too
A thousand words I would find
To say "If only you knew."

Frequencies so low
Heart on a string
A string that only plays solos
Rain made of echoes
Tidal wave rushing on and on

Shell made out of gold
Found on a beach picked up and you held so close
Rain washed out it's glow
Heartbeat steadily leads me down below

Under the water you scream so loud but the silence surrounds you
But I hear it loud and you fall in the deep and I'll always find you

If my red eyes don't see you anymore
And I can't hear you through the white noise
Just send your heartbeat I'll go to the blue ocean floor
Where they find us no more
On that blue ocean floor

Oh enchanting stars
Speak to me of your stories
Tell me of the Bear's scars
And how he earned his glories
A family torn apart
By the love of the eldest sister and a bear
The father killing the bear causing them to depart
Enkindling her to turn herself into a bear and causing despair
Youngest, magic one, save your siblings
From your once beloved sister
Shoot your arrows in the sky and end the killings
Turn each one of them into stars spawning a blister
As any can see with an eye
The story is forever imprinted in the sky

I always wonder what I am in other peoples eyes.