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xavier thomas May 2023
Internally I blame self-consciously self-inflict imaginary damage to lower my bright soul into a box
externally unconsciously making
my body sick
blaming other elements
around me
as seasons change
When I think about it,
I replay your words
I shouldn’t have to answer to
knowing truthfully I did nothing wrong to make you think I’m untrustworthy or that I’m a threat.
But because guilt exist,
It causes me to think I actually did you wrong.
xavier thomas May 2023
She wanna know my routine
And if my story’s clean
She wanna know what I’m doin’
And if I cheat
She says it’s all intentional
It’s killing me
I care about her heart & soul
But she’s not for me

You know we do a lot of back & forth
You know the moments been high, then really low
I unknowingly been guilt tripping myself
You know you accuse me fast like a pro
You know you have lack of trust in me
You know you treat me cold and that’s really cold
Those DMs, you were choosing me
You know at a time you were my Queen

You know you my brown sugar sweet maple
Know when I chose you, I admire your taste that’s natural
Know starting over isn’t the plan I want with someone else though
You were my type that I wanted to come home to

I gave you more hoping to see you at peace
I believe in your promise for many reasons
It’s hard to love a woman when you’re on the defense
Being reminded is one of many reasons why I’m leaving
xavier thomas May 2023
She wanna know my routine
And if my story’s clean
She wanna know what I’m doin’
And if I cheat
She says it’s all intentional
It’s killing me
I care about her heart & soul
But she’s not for me

You know we do a lot of back & forth
You know the moments been high, then really low
I unknowingly been guilt tripping myself
You know you accuse me fast like a pro
You know you have lack of trust in me
You know you treat me cold and that’s really cold
Those DMs, you were choosing me
You know at a time you were my Queen

I wanna ask you somethin, ask you somethin before I go.
What’s with the double-standards being in your favor for?
Anything said or done is a problem, it’s hysterical
And the more I think about it, it’s just getting old
I walked away quietly , thought we could build some trust
Since we’re separated , I won’t hit you up
We can find some peace from each other with no rush
Maybe someday time can change the
narrative between us
xavier thomas Apr 2023
Listen
This show is formalistic
Stones cleansing your soul, stepping away from you now
Cause you’re growing apart

Friction
Between us burning peace into pieces
You have issues that needs attention for now
Cause I’m growing apart

Grown living miles away
Growth unfolds in how we pray
Growing up from our old ways
There’s no one to blame, no
No

Grown living miles away
Growth unfolds in how we pray
Growing up from our old ways
There’s no one to blame, no
No

Tension
Trust no longer comes into existence
We should rule out priorities right now
Cause it’s growing apart

Leavin’
Mistaken my intentions with threaten
This relationship is way too defensive so now
We’re just falling apart

Grown living miles away
Growth unfolds in how we pray
Growing up from our old ways
There’s no one to blame, no
No

Grown living miles away
Growth unfolds in how we pray
Growing up from our old ways
There’s no one to blame, no
No
xavier thomas Apr 2023
Is it peace
or a piece
that you desire from me?
Peace- loving grace from me
Piece- taking my light from me
xavier thomas Apr 2023
Future Wife-

~forgive me. forgive for
not waiting on you like I was supposed to during ***.
I allowed my hormones & flesh
give the best of what
truly belongs to only you, to them.

forgive me- I was
still developing
into a new man
from a damage soul
under numerous baggage,
carrying their faults into mine.

forgive me- cause it’s about **** time
you came my way
after all these years
just waiting. ~
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