I have many names
Some are real some are fake

Some made up and some hurtful
Some to tell me they think I'm beautiful

I hear them all the time
Each and every day

Who knows when another will pass my way

I don't always know what to think
And never what to say

But I think I want more nicknames anyway

I repeat them in the dark
And think I now them all

Until someone tells me I haven't learned them all

I know some are sweet
But some make me sad

But I know the bullies try to just make me made

My Mom calls me nice
My Dad says everyone comes with a price

My friends say I am crazy
And my parents call me lazy

I know I'm just scared
Even though I'm shielded in confidence

I just want to know
What would I call myself?

If a glass bottle rolled up on my island I would sent it back
Its is nothing but a *****, filthy trap

They know my name
My shoe size and weight

They send me mail
Love and hate

They follow me
In life and on twitter

They call themselves my fans
But they are the ones that ******* away

They me to write my name over and over again
Using napkin, paper, pencil and pen

The cameras flash
And the people cheer

And I wonder how did I get here?
Was it something I said?
Was it something I did?

I like the attention but I need time for me to
I don't like always pushing through

The crowds are always there
They keep me hemmed in
They stand behind the ropes
Hands reaching for my body

I stand and smile they cheer and wave
I feel like I'm drowning pulled under by a wave

You pile high the hearts you stole
Will you ever reach your goal
The stack that stretch to the sky
Reaching endless miles high

You look airbrushed all to fake
But its my heart you intend to break
Does this some how satisfy your soul
How does make you feel whole

The memories drawn across your face
Will I soon take my place
I don't want to be another ended line
But if its destiny it will be my time

You break and bend rules of all kinds
And you are not trapped by an expanse of time
Only confined by your master
He bids you works faster

The scars on your back are your own doing
But I shall be your undoing
You know not of the dens in the dark
I sound my call whence sings the lark

A song unbidden to human ears
This will reunite you with your fears
Flood gates shall open on heaven and earth
And you shall be given your pitiful worth

The signs at the fork in the road
The waves against the shore seeking to erode
You shall be washed from heart and mind
I shall but take my time

The craggy cliffs unreachable
The sand on the shore unbleachable
A word that does not fade on my lips
The stories lost between trips

A kiss that you seek to devour
But you must wait for the right hour
A trap set with you as bait
I hide in the shadows and I wait

No trick of fools to be wasted on you
I have thought my vile plan through
When the you the Breaker plan to break me
I will not hide I will let you see

But when you traps you set for me in vain
I shall then cause you more pain
The eye is on you watching closely
And blames shoulders sets on my solely

When my life you though you could steal
But you are left with nothing to feel
When reality hits you in the face
And you are lost in outer space

The Breakers rise out of earth crust
Brought forth by vile lust
But I am the will of all power
Bringing forth your ending hour

Your words were dripping with affection
As if honey was falling from the sky

Oh silent wet and milky wash
Running down a glassy face
Doll like features and cold lips
Gently dropped by God's hand
A gift of rain to tomorrow sunshine
Little rivers winding through
Tell me I can still live without you
A poets remorse and empty words
The thoughts he said but no one heard
Could you just listen to a humble story
Could you just watch me cry
My invisible tears and speak silent words
Read my lips and kiss my cheeks
Red. Tears. A potent brew
But is it enough to sting you
Like a shaft from a bow
Like an arrow you pierce my soul
Like a stone from a sling
You leave me to fall
In empty shallow waters
Drowning in but a few inches of sea
Invisible tears on steel cheeks
Rusting as I start to weep

Be careful where you tread
Gently place your feet
Or you may fall to a dark place
Where the demons dwell

Be cautious my friend
Or you will know my hell

Have me hold your hand
Justify the means
If we go together
If we might make it through

But in this desolate place
I don't know what to do

If you fall then I will fail to
Cause this life means nothing without you

Step gently, tread softly, hold your breath, and count to ten

Make a wish, wake the dead
We fight though we cannot fly
But in this wasteland
The least we can do is try

We stand on crumbling floors reaching down to depths
If we fall, when we fall from above Hell to a thin paper veil

You are the duct tape
That holds all my broken stuff together

With a caution tape warning
On every piece

Careful.

Dangerous.

Hazardous.

Driving drunk
Just one time
Just one tire
Across the line

Could I build a poem like a brick house?
Held together with black and white emotions
Versus mortar, though some be just as hard

Could I stack them on top of each other?
Or would they not be strong enough
Would they break, or could they hold?

Could they blend together to make a beautiful picture?
Or be so obscure and obscene they would crumble
Would you find it beautiful?

Could you even understand?

When sad
I bathe
In rays
Of warmth
Pouring through
The window

What will you masquerade as love
When your body speaks
What does she say

You tried to make it about yourself
Saying that I was attacking you
But I didn't even call you names
How could you be so selfish

You tried to make it about me
Saying that I was throwing a hissy fit
But I didn't even victimise myself
How could you be so blind

You tried to make me feel crazy
Saying that it was all in my head
But the proof was in the paper
How could you be such a fool

It was about their safety
Big no matter what I said
You invalidated every word
My entire childhood a lie

Sisters, I could not love them more
My trust in you, could not be so lacking
My heart, broken with your response

It's not about me
And it's not about him
It's not about them
And it's not about you

It's about saying the right thing
And doing the right thing
No matter who you are
No matter what you face

But still you chose
To punish the victim
Not the assailant
******* **** culture

The heart in my chest
Has grown cold of late
Lonliness, she eats away at me.

I have taken my heart
Into my own hands
But she has pulled
What little warmth
Was left in my fingers

Now with cold hands
And a frozen heart
I pass into the night

You breathed, the smoke of your soul, into my unburnt lungs

2. I could not help but notice the contrast of my moon pale skin, against the dark of the midnight green grass.

3. As my barefoot feet, carried my caged and broken heart, to the dying embers of fire, burning within you.

4. I know not why it burns so close to this earth, or so near to my heart. Is it because you cannot bear to awaken the night sky?

5.With so much smoke it would burn, you could not sustain it.

6. Either way it is intriguing and beautiful to watch, with my midnight blue eyes.

7. I kissed your cooling embers back to life. I did not expect the charcoal on your lips, to thrive in my lungs, and burn in my eyes.

8. Yet I would not have it any other way. No reason to stop, and every to continue.

9. Burns, burn. Scars, fade. But your fire it eternal.

10. Safe it would be, to turn back. Yet I chose to walk the coals. To leave my mark in freshly fallen snow. To hold you close, and never let go.

11. I would press my heart into your hands, for you to warm it. We could own the night, and walk the moon.

12.Every sunrise coming much to soon. Yet we wait, for the light to break over the horizon.

13. I thought you would always be mine forever, but who was I to think I could take the flame, the heat, and the fire. The fire, that thrives between the layers of your dark skin.

14. Like melting wax and burning paper we danced. So bright, to soon, never strong enough to last.

15. As skinny as the ink coating these pages, paper to cover in sketches, stars, and still wet tears.

16. Twenty six sheets of life to live between. On bed and books you leave your burns.

17. Forever you burn.

18.I wanna rock it all night. Smoke child. Will you rock it out with me?

19. I beg you to speak! And fill me with your storms!

20. Raise me up, as high as your flames.

21. We dance, we light everything within reach, I'd be crazy if I didn't burn for you.

22.Am I enough to kindle, against your dark flame? To make you want to burn brighter.

23. Who are we? To challenge the light of the sun.

24.To rise in the night and never fade to black. To kiss the never look back. To run forever and never lose track.

25. Scorched by trial and charred by sweet lies.

26. I want to know would it burn as much.

27. If I saw the sparks in your eyes.

28. Skate the world

29. Hand in hand.

30. Dance in flame, like we planned.

Maybe our purpose is to find our purpose

A child shivers in the cold
Watching the fire inside

A daughter with a broken heart
Stays far away from comfort

A son with wounded pride
Seeks no comfort from his bride

A mother watches her children hurt
Wanting to draw them close to heart

A father with many a child
Not knowing which is hurting more

A God in the sky watching his people
Seeing the pain and saying 'asking and it shall be given unto you'
'knock and the gates shall be opened'

Don't you run and don't you hide
From the Lord in the skies

I talk I try to be loud
I cant interrupt they will think I am rude

I try to speak to choke back the shyness
But I cant be anything but afraid

I close my lips and I shut my eyes
And I wish in my heart to not be scared

I walk close to the waves but am kept to the shore
I shut every open questioning door

I see the light but I don't reach for it
I flip the switch and ignore it

I know I can do it
But I choose not to try

I'd rather sit here and let the time pass bye
I'd rather live a lie than have the attention

I'd rather be afraid
Than have my name be mentioned

I want to talk I want to ask
But I sit in silence with my mind off track

The fire burns
What did you think would happen
As snow melts and I see the real earth
Like a mask peeled to show
The face behind
When what you are trying to hide
Is what everyone really sees
What did you expect
This is life
Just a slap in the face
This is love
Just another broken heart
This is a game
What did you expect

I held my heart on the tip of my thumb
And then I held my breath
As I hit send and my heart went careening across the keys into your phone
Do your eyes light up from the screen, the way my heart does when you call me?
I hope you know how to swim
Because I could of drowned you in words even though I cannot find them on the tip of my tongue
They catch in my throat and pour out my fingers like a glass knocked over on a table
My feet stop in their tracks as another memory pinballs through my head
It ricochets like a hundred bats flying in a cave
**** I miss you.
I could pour myself out to you like a pitcher
But I swallow my thoughts and they leave a bad taste in my mouth
I miss the taste of your kisses, so sweet and gentle, though a bit salty
Salty like the ocean and every bit as wet and wild as the water
'You are a fool' I tell myself
To stay awake dreaming when you could be sleeping instead

anger is such a waste of time

No words more honest
Than those that fall
Unbidden from my lips

To a harsh gown of thorns
That encompass the earth
Judged and torn apart

By a one of a nobler birth
Could I compete?
Would I dare to be so harsh?

My sheets thinner
Than the water you drink
Did you catch me

Just to throw me back
Over the brink
Like an arrow

On fire at night
I would blaze out
Into endless night

You can not call me back
But yet I may return
Born and burn and beautiful

Like every other life
Not any brighter
Than you existence

Not any higher
For an resistance
To fight and lose

Or die and win
To make the battles
For you to win

You kisses un-gentled
You scent so torn
Between heaven and earth

All these scars were born
To travel up and down your limbs
Seeking for a harder way

To get within
To thrive under you skin
As thin as paper

To kiss you lips now
And taste it later
Like sweat on your brow

And the blood in your veins
I traveled around
Yet am hard to be found

As desirable as leaves
In a much to harsh breeze
Grown from the ground

Reaching for a sky
That sings and flies
And will ever fake to die

Dark clouds and burnt skies
More and less than butterflies
To not find your rainbow

Or be your sunshine
But to be yours
And you to be mine

A looking glass
You can never clean
Like double lenses

I am trapped between
Caught to a mortal form
Bound by your emotions

Would you release me
Don't just let me go
Push me away

No one will ever know
They are to absorbed
In their own laces

They never looked beyond
To see other beautiful faces
To trace the lines of your soul

To care if you were part of whole
To extend a hand
And grasp another

I found a hold
Hold  me close
Tight as a knot

I was neither given nor bought
Just an exchange
Don't let us trade hearts

For you would lose yours
But I will give you mine
So you can bind it inside

Right next to your heart
It will learn to thrive
It will never be lost

And never quite whole
But at least it will live
Next to your soul

Warmer than the cold
And as faded as dawn
Keep me inside

Or let me move on
To say goodbye
To lovers and friends

So ubruptly it ends
And I never knew when
So say goodbye

I never knew
It would be our last kiss
Was it something you needed

Or just something you missed
You can't press me
Between dictionary pages

For when the storms come
Its my temper that rages
Bound by paper

In handcuffs of ink
And when I begin to drown
Its you who lets me skin

Closer than kin
Thicker than water
You stole my father's daughter

She let you come in
But locked the door behind
So whatever happened

The lock would always remind
You of whispers
Hidden oak

To weave them inside
A memory cloak
What is found is found
And what is broke is a joke

I'm so fancy you already know
I'm in rehab from Tuesday to Thursday whoa

****** television
late night stands
what you had for breakfast
perfect hands
the sidewalk that talk
the air you breathe
this nights future
oh what a tease
dumpsters with garbage dreams
****** girls shoes
dance in the club
bring home the blues
glitter in her hair
life in your lungs
but you can't climb a ladder
if I steal the rungs :p

I brewed tea
Just to let my tears
Sit in the mug on the windowsill
The cool outside air
Stealing my cold inside thoughts

I feel you
Like the sweet relief of pain
When you have been numb
For so long

This is a fun little game game we play
You break my heart
And I leave you alone

I will not come home to anger
Whiskey
Astral projection
You know better
What are you keeping from
Secrets
Not so sweet

I do not need to walk this way again
To feel the same things I have felt for an eon and a half in these last four years
Time will never stop for me, she just drags me along by my hair
I can pull up this feeling, as quickly as one snaps their fingers
Maybe it has never left me, and in this I must be alone
My mind, she belongs to no one, she is stubborn and pays no rent
It is a rare thing to have unbinary thoughts in a binary world
If the standard is yours, then I can have no part
You wish you had hands to hold the wholeness of the world
Yet you have no faith, no trust, in a world that has always held you
I cannot help but wonder if I still linger under your skin, trying to find a way to your head
Since you have never took a leaving of mine

A smile painted on the mirror
And it didn't match her lips
A curve in a fun house
That scorned her hips
A length that most call pretty
But she never flips

The friend that left me
She never called
Never came back
And I don't think she ever cared

But you always stayed by my side
You kept me alive
Inside my head
I fought a ****** awful war
But you knock like and angel at my door

Closer than a sister
And more useful that breath
If I lost you
I would have no one left

My elven friend
Emerging from the woods
Like a nymph of heaven
You weave a spell of good

Call my name
And I will call yours
I am always here
That's what friends are for