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Mia Thompson Nov 2018
I could speak all day on how I have faith
Yet
Truth is,
I don’t have faith
I would like to believe I trust myself
Yet I barely put an ounce of love on that shelf
I don’t have faith that the right person will come and take my love
Because I am scared
I am scared that if I gave into anyone
That if I even trusted my love with you
That it’s just going to hurt that much worse when I let you go
I’ll have that much less faith in myself the next time I even try to love
I’m scared that you’ll say all these nice words to me
And possibly mean them
But I won’t trust myself
And blow the only chance I had at loving you
I’m scared that if you saw who I really am you’d leave
And want nothing to do with me
And in all honesty I really couldn’t blame you
Yet I could blame myself.
I could have faith that all my friends right now are loyal
That they would never talk about me behind my back
I could trust them with anything
I wouldn’t even be ashamed
Yet I have been played
And most of yall just sit there and smile in my face
It’s like getting on a plane ride
And trusting in the pilot to fly me safely
But then the rumors come like birds flying into the engine
Then down goes the plane
Because there is the same flock of birds flying back my way
Why won’t they just stay in their cage?
Don’t any of you realize
You’ve made me this way
Do it again lie to my face you’ll be another bird ruining my plane
The true friends are the pilots
Trying to guide me out of the bird’s way
Yet instead they get brought down with me
My real ones don’t deserve this
I’m the one who need to take the blame
I have a couple of parachutes
Hopefully they’ll escape while they can
I’ll stay though because the day this plane finally crashes
I hope those little birds will finally realize their damage
So much for flying this plane to heaven
I could have faith in myself
But I am not going to lie to you because I need you to have faith in me
I have been hurt
The kind where you stay up at night
Wondering what you did to deserve this
What is your purpose
Do I even belong here
Does anyone see my tears
I loved and I trusted
And that just got me here
Questioning everything
Everyone
I know I am hard of hearing
But it seems like I’m not the only one who can’t hear
Or do you choose not to listen?
These are the same people I’m supposed to have trust in?
Have love for
Tell them everything every little sore
If you could see my heart
You’d ask
What’s that little clump on the floor?
Where’s yalls heart at
I don’t see them anymore
All I hear is she’s this or he’s that
All this makes me mad
Why can’t we just love each other
Is that so bad?
Is it so bad to accept each other
No matter gay, straight, bi, or trans
No matter the color of skin
Not matter what music they listen to
Or if they fit in with a trend
Can’t we all realize
Everyone needs a friend
Everyone needs to spend
Just a little more time seeing who I am
Who you are
Who he is
Who she is
Who we all are
Because that is what we need
To be able to have faith in each other.
Misplaced Texan Jul 2015
She caught me in a trap
She reads me like a map
These simple lines I say
Vary from day to day
I think I'm a simple guy
My softer side is too shy
I can't help but stand tall
Fearing nothing but the fall
I'm coming close to never
But hoping for forever
Everything is going to change
When we each part ways
I hate what I've become
In this Arizona sun
I regret decisions I've made
But refuse to stand in the shade
Would I change it all?
My guess as good as yalls
My friends are all doing great
But I struggle with my fate
I want to go back in time
LoL **** I can't find a rhyme
That was an unintentional rhyme
I do that all the time
I guess I am a poet
But ****, I didn't know it
I'll just stop here and go back
See my friends, sip some Jack
I feel like my glory days have passed
Only 20 now, but running out of gas
The expectations of my peers
Is one of my biggest fears
I don't want do disappoint anyone
But I can't help but run
I miss the days at home
So let me write a poem
Nostalgic ramblings brought to you by a late night which has turned to an early morning.
Sebastian VL Jun 2017
:'(
Slept 12 hours too late last night
Still feel tired as **** that's right.
At a point of life where a day is a fight
Where people get loose and you lose the ones that's tight

**** all people in this world no height
**** so sad that my lows feel high as a kite
At a point of life where the shadow is bright
Only **** to save me in these hard ******* times.

Hard year trash year but I still made dimes
Feel like I'm fallin and my crash is worse than a chime
Somehow still made people laugh like I was fine
People aint real they hear me speak and think it's a sign

All mens leave you when they see you down low like a mine
Everybody scared to reach for you so they let you fall all the time
***** I declined don't **** my vibe no kenny I wish I'd rewind,

To the old me
A happier me
When I wasn't a poetic insanity
Now they mad at me

Ask why I changed think it's my fault yet they throw slack on me
Most people don't take you seriously
May speak hard facts cause I know ****
I've seen ****
But nothing to compare to the actualities

Now everyday 2 am that's who I am
I done ****** up too many things call me blem
Alone in this world no man no dem
Cold summer catching feelings all over again

I got people who was close till they found somethin better
Now all they do from time time is send me letters
Postin **** on medias I got these ******* in they feelings even better
They tryna defend themselves sayin I did **** yet they left me when all I did was make them better

Others just call my phone all day
Cause they bored and they need love in a way
Yet they treat you like you trash like you is **** in this place
And they finna throw you up destroy your whole life in your face

But nah I won't complain
I guess I am lame
This year lost people, dead in the grave
Lost fam in the way

Oh yea I am cray?
Lived through a lot in a year ******* cut me off in the day
Learned everybody fake when you really need them
Turn their back around you when you later see them

Learned a lot during freshman year
No guilty conscience no remorse no beer
Just pure emotions, sentiments of sad, lone and my fears
Finally being realized like losing people you loved yet showing no tears
Where you so weak every lil thing cuts you up like spears

So **** friends, **** everybody, everybody fake no joke
Sometimes I feel like my heart stoppin no stroke
Most of you flip more than pancakes no joke.
Went from happiest to saddest dude in the curve to broke
But I guess lyin, to make yourself feel better is a hoax
Make me catch feelings then see me break on the low.
I hope yalls are happy now you made a dude go down go forth
Thank you is all I have to say, that's all folks.
-SVL
Blakbuttafly89 Oct 2018
when your Heartbroken and stressed
your heart, mind body and soul  notices and you begin to see visions of positivity less and less,
you gotta understand where im coming from, you know that annoying knot in your chest
drives you so crazy that your daily thoughts become a mess,
Im still suffering from this disease of emptiness i cant get rid of more like a curse of never being enough. im so angry cause i know it was supposed to be us, but god said that it was yalls time i guess!
Its been months and he is visibly happy so must God torture my heart i tried everything still my heart beats faintly since that day.
i hope in good spirit your heart stays
even though with mine you choose to play
when things are over for yall please dont come my way
cause it will be too late u already left my heart damaged and bruised so there will not be much to say

#I wish Someone loved me in this way i'd never let them Go#
Not from the big Apple but I'll give ya
A raw sample preamble rhymes laid like a scramble
Life's a gamble as I rambles
Through the shadows of darkened plateaus
See my money movin' fast while yalls is slow
Feel the heat rising from the
Dough
50 Gs a show ya know how it goes no expenses so
Step back learn how to track and stack
Ya weight seal ya fate create my own legacy
Better yet a dynasty
So why ya eying me can't define me
By the m o n e y try selling me lies
I improvise
From a broken compromise demons in guise
Learned from the chakras ties and bakin' pies
Sweet cherry carry girls under my wood
It's understood I'm a champion breed
Played in the major leagues
Never catch me fatigue so all haters slowly
breathe
And Catch a disease so you can see my magnificence succeed
Indeed intrigued
By the deadly potency produce bars call me Quincy
Or Barry Gordy fake rappers bore me
Huh I got play and skillz get a freak from a tweet
Next week She in-between the sheets
like the Isleys despise thee
Haters that degrade me turn em to Jesus philosophy
Naw better yet turn 'em to my guns that'll empty
Full clips insert it to ya hip sealin' ya lips
The box is closed mama catching a runny nose
That's how it goes my flows movin"
Like the Nile river quiver damage ya liver
Without even touchin' shots of the hardest liquors
Yea...



Livin' out prophecies laid in pedigrees
Through out history tell me why black man is
Doomed for treachery maybe it's just me
And the things i see on TV??
Yo I'm Dangerous as Christ walking terrorities
Put me in the terroristic catergory cuz my conscious gory
Shed enemies before they get a chance to plan
An attack against me my attitude is rude
Crude as oil lay the war spoils bloods on soil
Watch how the earth heals itself hibernation
From bad health spiritual wealth keeps me stealth
Use half of the goetias embedded in me
Wearin' spells as a sigil cooking up sequels
Legal raw untouchable like Bugsy Segal
We lethal with our weaponry so don't think
You walkin' away free for talkin' about thee
Made a pact with the underworld so I can catch the swirls
***** of fire earth is mine as I desire
More than riches I'm all about knowledge of self
Yeah feel me I'm the lyrical Garvey got more wisdom
Than Socrates takin' over all mental monopolies
So that means ya property is under my captivity
So when the real Gs enter the building
Begins a new billing I'm pass the ceiling
Once I began fillin' and drillin' heads
Til the bloods spillin' unleash the souls
For the dead scrolls paid ya toll gotta go
Cuz I'm outta time rhymes running off the paper
Soon to scrape ya from the music that played ya
My vocals fit perfect none could surf above it
See where the most pain is felt is through evilness dealt
I got many welts from mammas belt
Tryna to escape the pain leased into my brain
Wish I could see the change but the scenery
So many younginz rushing into the cemetery
When our existence is out of the ordinary
How many of us gotta die for us to un-multiply repolish the stories
Of the media's flashback retrospect back
To the days when they downed us blacks why we constantly under attack down the henneys rack to retract
My thoughts before i drown myself
Cuz too many shots ain't good for my wealth
I try to hide my outer self from my inner self

Its too many cains ablin' out cuz of the lost clout
No ties to the skies only see the ****** sunrise
In my eyes i saw a blind man shoot himself
Saw the same game that played *** Bias Left his career on the shelf
On the shoulders tomb tryna heal the womb
But the wickedness too deep so it only consumes
Sadness over happiness **** I miss
All of the fallin' uncrowned legendaries I'm keepin' yalls legacy alive **** the
jive
I'm talkin' about all the artists that was live
From rock country hip hop jazz to the blues
Blacks set the spark to the fuse through *****
Once again let the smooth mellow sounds comprehend


See the preyin' hawks that love to stalk unspoken with they verbal hearts lay out the chalks
picking victims in the dark
Only to park and spark
Up another catastrophe what's new to you aint new to me you see
They engineered these plans way before humanity
Livin' in a Concrete jungle but the deaths humble
Life over creativity release my energy
To the celestials that be visions of the sticky
Icky green burnin' tracks to up destinys fiend
Intervene the negativity that clings and sings
In between a lullaby and the souls that cry
This is cradle music it's hard to abuse it
That craft I hold I'm a stay true to it
And if I don't my critics speak on well
Or forever hold ya casket shell a slow roastin' from Hell prepare fo the veiled
I feel like my **** is going to stop
I make spider man .
Look like a little kid.
In Dennis Rodman's ******* hobby shop.
A marching caravan of killers.
With the farthest need for constant watch.
I'll citizens arrest yo ***.
Right now. For playing with my *****
Better than a soccer mom...
I make these eyes.
Hint your size.
Is perfect for my mommy palms.
I **** you off.
Than call an Asian ***** into
******* your ****
Just like a saki  bomb....

I'm mister ******.
The viet Kong.
Just realized what kind of
Rock I'm on...

I make Taylor's swift look like.
An ugly blonde.....
That just awoke and realized
What kinda drug she's on..
She sliding into ****
Like theres hey yalls in a country song..
I'm trying to bug the phones
But I'm still wondering.
If someone calls.
Will I be more than just a lurch
You rang. And make miss Adam's stomach crawl...
So **** it yall
Inevitable Jan 24
Meet me at the football field, you know the one.
Just give me a conversation and you can go on.
Lets just live in the moment and reflect,
whatever you want to do after, I respect.
I feel like I've give you both that thus far
and will continue to because
the latter isn't what I want.
I want you to be happy, fulfilled.
and maybe thats yalls deal
but I wont stop yearning until I
know how you really feel.
I swear I know how you feel.
and I know it cant be easy.
This hasn't been for me
but I want you to understand clearly.
I have always been yours
and you know its true.
You have always been mine
and we know thats true.
I've been away preparing a home for you
and none of that really matters
if you've already got that one in you two.
So meet me at the football field
and let me explain, i've let you live looking at me in vain to ease the pain but you do not know the truth that I have proof.
I have reason behind all of my moves.
so please meet me at the football field.
Wrote 1/23/24   @ItsInevitable229

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