I used to bring prescription pills
to parents day
because I didn't think anyone
could tell the difference

What'd you call Christmas
without heat
in a house without power?
2007

My father swore that he'd
teach me how to ride a bike but
instead he introduced me
to his new baby girl
And every time we drive
past the hospital
my mother remindes me how much it cost to save my life
that one year
She doesn't have
to say that she wished I'd left
instead of him
She spent twenty one years
tucking my brother into bed
but it took her nine just to touch me

And when I finally had the courage
to tell my mother I was too afraid
to eat - she told me it's a blessing
That she spent most of her twenties
regurgitating flesh into paper bags
and that's how she got daddy
to stay

I haven't seen him in close to three years
but he calls sometimes
and we talk about the weather
I still remember the day he said goodbye
He said he'd come back
and we'd clean up that old bike from the shed
*I still walk home

At the rooftop bar
In the night I see stars
Love isn’t bad
Neither we are
We fail to express,
We fail to feel so
We Hate the love...

All these lines are about the life,
The one i didn’t decide
Watch out, he’s about to stride
With one insident, feelings has died,
I would have regrets, but i have tried,
Cried, a tearfull eyes,
In the winter we wait for sunrise,
Coz Cold Nights are hard to survive
But survival is a thing you must not deny,
Love hurts making you angery,
Cutted with blades, please take me to dispensary
Went to Flash back, remindes me something dark, which i am afraid of
But i see light in her side, goosebumps for the fight to life
But i was wrong, thought shez strong
I am like japan, shes being nuclear bomb, ready to explode,
She closed the door,i lost the key
I am on the ice with broken ski
Going so far where you cant reach
But remember
Every hiroshima have one nagasaki...

At the rooftop bar
In the night I see stars
Love isn’t bad
Neither we are
We fail to express,
We fail to feel so
We Hate the love...

That was a remembrance, what a feeeling it was,
She and me emprising thoughts,
Some of them cited when i see the  past, away from the world in eachother we lost,
We brought happiness tied in relationship knots...
But i wonder how things can change so fast?
From everything we’re nowhere to be found,
Karma hit rebound, and i am down
Depressed, broken feelings all around
Hate gaining towards love now,
But my love there is life ahead to go
Don’t you mind if i am moving on
Relationship?? no place in my heart
Coz every end is a new start.

At the rooftop bar
In the night I see stars
Love isn’t bad
Neither we are
We fail to express,
We fail to feel so
We Hate the love...

People talk about love and their lovable
They feel em, they need em
But i have something different to tell
Worst, bad and how i fell...
We fight, we love, we laugh, we? No i cried,
Somewhere in my mind i got this line
Are you falling for me?
Like i fall for you?
Or this all are dreams i want to?

You kept coming in my dreams
Those were very hurtfull enough me to scream
But i love the pain, by them i gain
Your memories keep hitting my brain
Like alcohol in my veins, i know that was a too lame,
I just tried to rhyme this in line, why you sad? Dont worry i’m fine
keep answering this to my friend
But let me tell you silence is my strenth, so i started this lyrical game
I’ll tell you in detail who were main
To separated us in two
And made me a swain...
I am empty road in rain
Waiting for you to come in
We’ll steep together...
Mom shouted,
And i woke up alone in my bed....

Did I said "GoodBye" in silence

Doesn't she miss me  atleast once

Did I can't see her anymore

Doesn't  she remindes me anywhere

Did  I only loves her

Doesn't she ???