it crushes my chest

every new moment 

that you aren’t with me

but to push something so delicate

would only cause it to crumble

I want you so badly

it’s almost violent 

but I will lie here and wait

for another chance to reach out

and feel the hair rise on your arm

how many times will you cry wolf
before you realize you’re the animal
howl at the moon, child

we’re not coming for you

I’m so sorry

I pull on your arm

and squeeze you

too tight

I don’t mean to hurt you

I would never hurt you

I just can’t breathe

when you walk away

I won’t do it anymore

just please come back

lay down

I’ll stop your crying

I’ll kiss you

I won’t hurt you

please come back to me

I’m sorry

I want your hands on me

but I will settle for your eyes

I’ll make a fool of myself

just to feel you watching

I think sometimes 

if I slit your throat

and held your face to mine

you'd find something else to focus on

just to deny me the closure

of watching you die