There is this split moment
When you realize
Something that
Everyone else has known
For the first time
A crack in reality
White noise in the dark truth
Its like your eyes are suddenly opened
And the lights are stinging bright
Everything you thought was true
Was
Not
You hear the walls all come crumbling down
Am I losing you?
Did I ever have you in the first place?
When it comes to you, L, why am I always the one reaching out? Why do you never tell me anything?
•••
You said you wanted me the way I am.