i have been up all night losing my grip.
all i have felt is my mind playing tricks on me making me want to lose every thing and trash the place till i burn alive.
it only 12 am i haven't even let my heart rest all these words i cant get out of my mouth.
you haven't made up your mind to let me or tell me i'm losing my mind in to insanity that wont let me scream my lungs out till i puke my guts out leaving me insane and dead.
all night there is a code i have saw pass the back of my head. all my sharpies have dyed or ran out for my despise. i feel like i want to tear this place down like the house of cards i have assembled. all the symbioses i have written all over my body that will make you scream at me for being nothing but a ****** path that can never be silenced even never ever stop'd. up all night just wanting to scream till i can make a point   of i'm still hear. up all night i have so much built up inside when all my loved ones just fight taking out all there violence they have to use.  i know some times life is rough. up all night i have so many things that built up in me. up all night i ponder that i have lost my mind to insanity and the free fall of what i have been on each and every day. up all night i just want to let out all my darkest demons to try to make a smile. up all night i might leave sneaking out at 12:06 am just leaving to escape to vent my life's misery. up all night i just want to try to sleep but what will i do cause music has calmed me till i fell asleep. up all night i grow more crazy just fighting this worlds ******* that hits me from every way.

up all night i have so much to write even if i grow more insanely crazy up all night i just want answers that will tell me the real truth.


if i'm up all night just letting you know in the morning i will have writings all over my body.

i never smile cause i'm Russian the cold weather i form into. i see no fear i'm a harden till that net time we meet. you have your weapons so do i. you don't need bullets to win only what we have to spill. i plan my attack when you men march threw the snow cover brush. you have no idea what will be coming to you when u step into my winter trap.
your bullets will fly but your never going to hit me only the surprise that will blow you across this battle field.  have you ever meet me the insane Russian full of mysteries. you cant escape what kinda war ill play.  the winter is my  advantage cause i'm living threw your battle you have planed you crazy jellies ****'s your plan is over when the snow shows you my war with no bullets or fire power just mind bending tricks that will slowly make you sink into insanity or make you lose every thing.

my war only has mind mental power not blood shed that you would bring to wipe out every thing to gain permanent power. every one in your path has been killed or piling up bleeding to death with your head making this world suffer with blood filling the snow covered woods that your forces have made. your only fear is being mind read your life is over when your paranoia starts tearing you down like a tree taking your power i'm going to end your life mentally with you driving your self to death.

my war has no fear no blood shed but a plan to follow my own orders to end this **** that lays between both of us.

i work behind the enemy lines planting my attacks on life your life.

i fight with no violence just like one time we were friends brothers. but that night i told you betrayed me you took off all night planing your own revenge that will drive you to your own grave.

you were my brother allies family my betrayer.
my trust has lost but you keep trying to get to me with your lies of **** you keep putting on your life.

snow is my life i survived in Russia in the winter but i got a chance to tell my stories the stories is where i have survived this world that hits me every witch way it can. i might have found a way to describe how i'm still alive.

you can make me suffer you could start a war that will destroy my life but i won't let my grip let go to fall to the ground and let go till it give up all my secrets.

i have the gift of blending into the winter since my body only adapts to the cold.i might be insane or crazy but nothing can stop me or knock me down even bullets or war will never bring me down. you can tourcher me  break me but ill never break.

my secret i never will smile i'm Russian and i don't smile but when i do youl wish you never wasted your time trying to break me till the end of time.

do i need blind love or do i stay away from your lies you have told me. your life is almost over when i pull the covers over my head leaving me to feel free from the agony that will never leave till the end of time

i think love is a dangerous road to go down. its blind it will take your mind driving you you t your own insanity. you cant swim away you drown. its all lies that surround you like old memories that make me want to punch you in the face. i have been caught trap'd for internetey. no room to breath just lost of hope to be let free .
love is a blind identity that stabs you in the back. i see no reason for love to bite me like a vampire needing to feed then you are trapped till you dye. your life has been erased your don't know how to release the anger. your voice is only hollow  your mind cant say letters or even say any words. you have been trapped in a parallel universes that collapse killing every body. the love is a blind danger that no one will survive from you life is over taken away by the love that wasn't meant to become.


love is a dangerous blind road to your own soul that will be taken away only the suffocation you'l   get is no way to  escape no freedom will ever come all your friends and family just don't want anything left to care about you cause the blind dangerous night you have lost your real mind only insanity will bring this house of cards down to the floor.

There once was a man who wrote poetry
Which alas was not read that widely.
Until, that is, he passed away
And became the talk of the day;
Lauded, albeit posthumously!

our time comes when the night falls down
as the midnight turns into a quarter to one
you'll wait until i came down
and i'll see your smile as i couldn't hide mine
the thrill starts with the ride
take me behind you on your bike
you swift me through the cold night
the rush that seeps through me
as i clutch tight to your waist
lead me to our secret place
it was the perfect hideout
under the stars and the moon peeking through the clouds
our first kiss and you covered your shy face
moments passed by and a love was made
look me in the eye one more time
as i kept getting pulled away by your tide
drown me in your love and lust
bury me under your skin
surround me with your scent
brush your cheeks against my face
no matter what I still see you in my dreams
the night will never stop haunting me
i'll never escape from your tide
i can never get away from you
you're my suicide ocean
i'll bring you to my death

we first meet under the pink cheery blossom tree your beauty has stolen my own mind controlling me like your hypnotizing ways. your looks have made me go blind but it turns out i really wasn't love just your manipulative eyes. i have lost my soul because of you i'm now losing my mind in insanity that will make me crash down like a plane diving out of the highest part of the earths suffocating lies. i had a feeling this wasn't meant to be. this feels like a dream but is it real or all just a ******* up lie. is there any way to find to escape or is this life going to explode with war and fire fight that will never end. how did it come down like this when we meet i thought you were just a normal girl but my fear has taken it all out. i don't know how  to look away cause your eyes have locked on and controls my brain blinded by a fake image that will never fade. this love has brought all my fear up for you to play on me. i might lose my mind you took my life and tour it up till i lose it into psychotically insanity.. i wish i could have made that mistake and kept flowing  down the road so i wouldn't have this happen to me at all. i wish i could grab the change to really believe that you weren't to good to be true. you are the biggest mistake you have taken my blind identity that i just want to scream at all of you *** hols. your lies have taken all my breath and drowned  me to death.


that hot cool summer day i thought this was going to be true but what i wasn't able to do was tell you that i will bring all the ******* down on your lies.


i knew it wasn't meant to be but i let my guard slip. so theirs nothing anything more to say when i have to bring this house down stopping your beauty that tricks people into love when its all your mind games. it was never meant to bee.


this was the mistake of a fake identity that blinds the ones who fall in your trap.

i knew it was never meant to be just a suffocating mistake no one could ever escape from.

i have take my time just to make u feel loved. but you have turned your back on me betraying all the information i have slipped beside both of us. i spent my time making sure no one would hurt you. but i don't think i'm emotionally strong enough to keep going. i have gave you my trust but all you have said is words of ******* that only leaves the gashes deep into my skin. i made your life free but i feel like i cant look at my self when my tears start to flow down my tormented mind set. this is what will be a choice that will erase you from my mind and my society that only makes the truth bleed when u stabbed me in the hand with a rose. my tears have never been seen but i think this time is and acceptation we all have to live with. but i'm about to lose my mind when i just need to start to run so i can escape your words that have just made life a game. this life is crazy but i will make my new identity that will make a master of despise. no one will ever know when i take my **** and just disappear on the run. no more tears no more fear of lies that will turn my personal life psychotically insane no one could escape your not even worth my time any more so good bye