So you spent all your life here,
in these walls of virtual reality
Within the confines of sweet sweet fantasy
that holds you dear every moment

The unrelenting love you receive
The security and ease
All bad things at bay
The firewall keeping it away

So you live in your perfect little globe
the place where you control everything
In where you can be someone else
and not care if you hurt anybody else

How long has it been since you got out?
The sun in your skin and wind caressing it
The laughter and sweat you spent playing
The hellos and goodbyes we love giving

The trips to your friends for tea time
Choosing trends in malls with friends
The fun of riding in an attraction in a park
And the pure joy of doing it all...Physically

So while you're at it
Staring into the hollow monitors and screens
Take back what once was you
Hit refresh and do what you want to.

Every moment, minute or day,
we spend our waking life breathing in life
enjoying memories and cherished people around
making love and making laughs

the sweet sweet breeze, and the peach colored skies
All of it so sweet it makes our teeth hurt thinking of it
like so many photographs and records we shared
All of it in a single breath and a blink of an eye

Isn't it fun and happy?
Isn't it so perfect and so simple?
Isn't it what we wanted to all have?
Isn't it what we long for and did have?

Until we turn dark, and all the colors turn grey
until we see what we were and see what we are now
Until we crumble in each and every word we hear
until we succumb to the arms of Depression itself

Until we grab that **** bag and stuck our puny heads in
Until we reach for that medicine cabinet for the pills we need
Until we take some drugs and ease our pains
Until we reach the moment darkest in our darkest days

Breathe child, my momma would say
breathe it all out and breathe it all in again
I keep breathing and breathing and breathing
until it becomes a routine that my muscles have mastered

Breathe out the bad thoughts
Breathe it back in
Breathe out the bad thoughts
Breathe it back in

Day by day, it cycles, an endless horror show
Night by night my hands tingle like shaking jello
I can't seem to remember what my momma told me
Help! somebody please, help me breathe

The relentless hands of anxiety and depression
The unforgiving laughs of insomnia and ADD
the same sh*t that I go through, night after night
Caging me in like a tiger  in a circus show

Until we see the calm and grasp it like a baby holding a rattle
Ever so tight, yet ever so clumsy
The light shines and we see clearly
What we have become and start breathing in rhythm

My lungs fill with air every time I breathe
Yes, but as I fill my chest with life...
When I exhale, am I breathing out my life?
So tell me, Am I both living and dying with every breath?

Am I already dead but my body denies it?
Am I a walking corpse living in an empty shell?
Am I a machine destined to be one so lonely, so shattered
That I cannot anymore---I cannot anymore, breathe.

When alone, we think
About people, things and topic
Gossips and rumors
Possible truths and murmurs

In the deafening silence,
We sit and ponder beyond
Of tomorrow with our grievance
Until in worries we but bond

The anxiety and endless choices
Possibilities and countless voices
Of guilt shouting over conscience
Of our doubts, we worry nonsense

The darkest thoughts and desires
About people we love and admire
Of things we lost in the fire
Of ****** choices we made full of ire

As social as we are
We find comfort in groups
Alone as we were
In Danger's hand our life droops

So never be Alone
In such a ***** fit
As we tend to step on sleet
In the throes of  depression and worry...
We have all but gone.

I am transient
I am ephemeral
I am but a blink
I am but a speck

Born Today
I will Die Tomorrow
Warm one moment
Cold the other

Celebrated my omens
Now I am forgotten
Once risen to fame
Now nobody knows my name...

I am Ephemeral
In the eyes of the celestial
As we all are
You are also Ephemeral

Strip, strip, strip
My shirt on the floor
Strip,strip,strip
My body on the door

Strip,strip,strip
Red stripes on my skin
Strip,strip,strip
Strip me bare within

Strip,strip,strip
The drip of deep red blood
Strip,strip,strip
My body bathes in blood