There's a song in my head that replays,
How can I get rid of you if you are in my head all day?
Please leave me alone,
My heart is already made of stone, but
You taunt me with this song,
The song that plays all day long.
"Say nighty-night and kiss me. Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little dream of me"
Memories of how you would sing this to me,
Oh how I wish you would dream a little dream of me.
But now I am a broken glass,
Sharp and dangerous.
Like a piece of bread, bland and flavorless.
I have nothing left of me,
So I choose to be high
You see with out you I'm as cold and lonely as can be.
So get this song out of my head,
Because I remember when you always said,
Dream a little dream of me .
No, let me fly and spread my wings,
Leave me and my thoughts alone,
leave me and my heart of stone,
"Tell me you miss me"
So that I can break your heart, like you did mine. So "dream a little dream of me."

One more hit, one more fix and I'm done.
To keep my mind off of you.
one more tab;
one more hit;
one more rock;
Another drink.
just one more thing to numb this feeling for a bit.
this black hole that lies in me.
I am always high or out partying.
Not a second passes when I can bare to feel a thing.
I take someone home because I'm scared to be alone.
I always have plans because I won't dare to have one second of peace so that I can let myself dwell on you.
I'm not myself right now and that's okay,
because I need to get away.
Away from you, and this pain that stabs in my chest like a knife.
Drugs are what help me feel better,
even if it's temporary.
I'm not addicted to the substance,
I just crave to be numb always.
I slowly feel myself becoming heartless.
a frigid layer of protection is growing over my heart and I'm okay with that.
leave me and my decisions  alone,
leave me and thoughts alone.
let me be high, get drunk.
**let me be numb

I let my ignorance slice into my pride,  and my will power drip out of it .
Never enough courage to let my ignorance slice deeper with its full potential.  
My pride is scarred with the pathetic attempt to end all misery.  
In my rage of a moment I wish for everything to disappear.  
I drown myself in my own pity just for another day to cowardly use my ignorance as a weapon once more.


I have found that this day I feel particularly able to release all of my hurt at once.  
With this ignorance I have built up over years,
I put it at the base of my pride and I stab in and slice vertically.
I am now bleeding out all of the hurt,  and pain I've had.
Soon there will be no pride to cut,  no ignorance to use,  no hurt to feel,  no will power to lack.
*Soon it will all be over

How many times…  how many times must this taunt me?
How many times must it stare me in the eyes and pierce my soul?
How many times must I strive for the best and gain the least?
How many times will this ruin my life?
Why am I in a room full of people but still feel lonesome?
I am strong willed, and strong at heart .
But why is my flesh not as strong as my soul?
Why is it that i do good in life and gain the ugly things in life?
Am I not worthy of your love?
Why have you forsaken me?
Where are you?  
Are you even there ?
Hello…
Answer me please.
Solitude is what scares me the most and that is the only thing I feel.  
If you're there please save me…