Watching you cry yesterday was like drowning in a pool of your tears
I hated seeing you happy
But now, I wish I could take all those tears and see you smile again
But what were you thinking?
Did you think that you could get away with that?
You weren't in love
You were just entertained
By the idea of someone new
Someone different
But you broke the code
And that's hard to repair
I have to side with her this time
I'm sorry

I wish I didn't worry about you so much
You look so happy and I'm angry
I wish I wasn't angry
But I want to be the one that makes you happy
I just wish I could ignore you

I want to be happy but my brain won't let me
I feel so guilty for everything I've ever done
I feel like I've ruined everyone's lives
But I think things will be okay
I will just keep fake smiling until soon it is real

I knew that the happiness wouldn't last
I knew that I would do something to ***** it up
What I didn't know was how fast things would change
One moment I couldn't wipe that stupid smile off my face
I was laughing, having fun
The next moment I lost everything
Crying nonstop
All because of the stupid mistakes I made
No one realizes how much I hate myself

I don't want to be alive anymore
I am a bad person
I cannot live
I cannot change the way people view me
I cannot change the way people treat me
I want to be better
I want them to know that I'm trying to be better

My hand would fit perfectly cupped around your face
Your heart could fill my last empty space
My whole world pauses when we embrace
You are my missing puzzle piece
But I can't have you
My hands are cupped around his face
He is occupying my empty space
While you are crying about someone who doesn't love you
Someone who doesn't deserve you
I need to stop thinking about you