I think so much
But I have dreams too
Of beautiful romance
And skies made of infinite blue
Times unknown become gradually new
The clustered thoughts fade
Until they are just about you
I can be the words to your smile
Together we can make our dreams come true

As blank as the page in front of me
My mind took me where I wanted to be

Long ago my teacher said
'You a daydreamer'
My mind would leave this land
However, not long after my mind found it all too much

For many years
I would pretend
As if it was all okay
As If I never cared
But hatred grew
And love fell apart
A shallow mindset
Made an empty heart
I'd wish that life would come to an end
It would hurt too much to think again
Overtime my mind started to change
I started to smile
I cried again

When I look back at what my teacher said
I think maybe that's not so bad
To travel through time
To be famous
And loved
To never have to leave

My ink will tell you stories you would never believe

If we had wings would we fly away?
Would we leave the bed where we once lay
Into the light, if it has not yet faded away
I am tired of this darkness
It keeps me inside
It holds me, hostage
As if I was not alive
Calm it may be
It won’t let me dream
Only showing me nightmares and horrors that I wish I would not see

I don't want to be in the afterlife thinking
'The biggest mistake I made in life was when I killed myself'
That's why I hope there is no afterlife

When I see you
Standing there
What can I do
But fall in love
Once again
How pleasant it is
To be falling for you

The impact you had
If only you knew
I got lost in your troubles
Now I sit alone in my room

Distorted reflections of each other
Broken glass shows our true colors

Your heart was never made for two
I thought as I stared at the autumn blue

Hatred
How could I become

Dim the lights out
To make me feel numb

Tears mixed with madness
Are the only way out

Will escaping this nightmare
Bring the other dreams back

Time
Will you wait for me or will I succumb?

This feeling is new to me
It stuns my mind
And lets me be
Empty hope
And lonely words
Is what I used to be
But now I can breathe
Make amends to the anxiety
And make sense of the hollow dreams
There is much more to me
Maybe in ways that you could only see
And when my words don't flow
Just know
Its because
My mind is stunned
By your beauty

Seamlessly
The rain has poured for years
There would be stars up in the sky
If they all did not disappear
The coldness never goes away
No warm jumper would understand

Is it night time
If the sun never comes
To dry away your tears

Grey has become of the sky                     Blue has taken control of the sky
Bewitching the street lights below            Alluring the birds below

Empty sidewalks                                       Buzzing sidewalks            
Crowded clouds                                         One single lonely cloud
This must be a dream                                This must be a dream
I feel empty                                                 I feel complete
Absent                                                  ­        Present
Is this to be alive                                          Is this to be alive

I can not see the diamonds up above        I can see the diamonds up above
It is lonely here outside                               It is lovely here outside
This day felt dreary                                    This day felt joyful
The night feels numb                                 This night feels sympathetic
Unlike the crowded clouds                        Like the blue sky
Hollow is my mind                                    Fulfilled is my mind

Grey has become of the sky                      Blue has taken control of the sky
Bewitching my sunken eyes                      Alluring my hopeful eyes

Everything is collapsing
And these words only keep me somewhat stable

The coldness of your shallow eyes
Only light up when the tears have dried
And when the thoughts are burred so very deep
Your mind takes you where you want to be
Away from anger
Far away from fear
So far from reality
That you would have no need to care

Sometimes I don't know how to finish what I have
Oh no it happened again