The problem with money & drugs is there's never
enough.

Too much is not enough.
Too little is not enough.

I have a problem —
money & drugs

but
my real problem isn't
money & drugs, or
too much and
not enough,

they just keep my mind from
the 'problem' that is

me.

I want
   you today,
   tomorrow,
   next week,
     and for
   the  rest  of
     my life.

    You give
  me feelings
      I can't
        put
        into
      words,
    but  I  still
       write
       them
     because
        that
       is me.
I  am  so very
    thankful
         for
        you.

      BOOM
  you just got
     LOVED.
                                                                                   Jon York   2019

sometimes,
reminiscing about the different changes,
while being in front of other people's faces,
behind my mind I just want to die,
because no one even cared enough that's the reason why.

If only I could write you  a poem
From a music perspective
I'd scream all day that
I hate that I love you.
I'd smoke ****
get really  high
Numb my days with morphine
and totally blackout

If only I could write you a poem
From a death perspective
I'd remind you of dreams
Strive for what you believe in
give a ****
and for as long as you are alive
never say I wish i knew

If I write you a poem
From a poet perspective
I won't tell you that my heart is broken
I'd say Its been wrenched
Castrated,
It's an empty weight
It has been ruthlessly devoured


If only I could write you a poem
From a love perspective
I'd argue that it's only a feeling
that needs more analysis
It's the only acceptable
form of insanity globally

You were a stranger..... turned into a familiar smile
Turned into a best friend then into a lover that lasted a while

We turned into each other’s worlds then our worlds crumbled as we spoke with words of anger
Used to share every single problem now we turned to others to ease the pain thought we vowed never to talk to strangers

Strange to think of a life with out you
Strange to think I can live with out you

Our whole worlds turned upside down as we looked at each other as foreign beings
Like who is this? Where is the person I love? I swear I’ve never seen stranger things....

Even though we did not want to part ways
We both agreed it’s better this way

I wanted to be at peace with you but I guess I have to say peace to you ✌

You were my familiar smile.... and that smile it still lingers
now somehow again, weve come to a full circle we turned into complete strangers

Did you ever felt like jumping off a cliff,
Not because you wanted to die,
But because you can?
Because no one is going to stop you?
Because you want to see the aftermath?
Did you?