John Tan

John Tan Oct 2018

Overthinking kills
I am very aware of it,
Yet I still indulge myself in it,
Every bit of it.
Sometimes so caught up in it, I lose my breath
But then I remind myself
That overthinking brings no benefits,
Only more troubles,
Because that is the art of overthinking.

#anxiety #overthinking #stress

John Tan Sep 2018

The Only Way Out

Face your demons
Don’t drown them with alcohol
There’s no point in doing that
Deep down, you know
It’s only going to make them stronger

Acknowledge your wounds
Don’t try to hide them
There’s no point in doing that
Deep down, you know
You’re only delaying the healing process

You will struggle
You will tumble
When you do
But then you will see that
The only way out is through

#fears #demons #cure #recovery

John Tan Jul 2018

Purpose

I am no superhero
I can’t shoot lasers out of my eyes
I can’t save the universe
But I want to make a difference
Do the little that I can while I am still here,
To fulfil a purpose bigger than I am

#purpose #priorities #goals

John Tan Jun 2018

Honesty

You like being honest.
You say it’s the best policy.
So, you say whatever that comes to your mind.
Without thinking about the consequences.

You call me sensitive.
You deem me emotional.
When I voice out my hurt,
Pain caused by your recklessness.

But you don’t care.
You like exercising your right to be brutally honest
So, you never once cared how your words affected me.
How it caused me distress for years

Because while it took you a few seconds to utter those words,
It took me years to heal from it.
But again it’s none of your concern,
Cause you were just being honest.

#honesty #fragile #heart #sensitive #emotional

John Tan May 2018

A note to Death

Death,
Just the thought of you
Send chills down my spine.
I fear you, I dread your arrival.
Not for your ability
To rob the life out of me
But for your capability of
Knocking on my door unannounced

Death,
You're the ultimate life dealer.
I wonder, is it possible you
Prolong my expiry date?
I want to live a long life.
I want to see my dreams come true.
I want to grow old with my loved ones.
If you could, would you please?

Death,
The bitter truth
You give meaning to life.
I can’t foresee your coming.
I can’t tell your intentions.
But I can utilize the time I am given
To live the life, I dream of
And for that, I am thankful.

#death #fear #life #demons

John Tan Apr 2018

Loneliness

Loneliness
My constant companion
A friend I befriended from my childhood
That sticks with me through thick and thin
No matter where I go
Who I am with
It never let goes off me

Loneliness
A core memory
I’ve relived a countless times
That was responsible for the tears I’ve shed
No matter how many tears
How many hours of therapy
It still hurts

Loneliness
An inevitable emotion
I have stopped running away from
And instead embraced
Because no matter how painful it can be
I always find myself in the end

#loneliness #mentalhealth #demons #pain

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