I'm amazed at the fact of how much I am still welling to prolong my hope and wait for you
when you clearly don't give a dime about me

I'm amazed at how much I brush my feelings away for you
In hope that you won't fall for someone else and give us a chance aleast

I'm amazed at how I couldn't stand you
yet here I am day and night dreaming of the two of us together.
And yet I can't even get the courage to say hey hi, while you're just a message away from me.

I'm amazed at how much I think I know you while I don't even know your second name to say the least.
I'm amazed at how much my heart beats uncontrollably for a guy that might not even care if I exist.

I know I might have done you wrong but I didn't go looking for all these feelings that have emotionally blinded me.
I didn't go looking for all these feelings that causes me to be someone I'm not comfortable with
And I didn't go looking for these feelings that makes me pray for you day in and out without any reason.

I'm amazed that I'm still habouring all this while I try so deep and hard to think of why I desperately love you...

My eyes are filled with major insecurities
I never thought that this was who I was meant to be
Through all the abuse, damage and pain that I went through
Who knew that this was where I'd end up to be

No longer being that joyful girl that opened her heart to everyone around her
No longer carrying that smile for a mile which would help someone in need somewhere out there

She became a sad little prisoner
In her own world
Shutting everything and everyone out because she was afraid to love again
to accept all that was her
because of all that she went through

She became me and I became her
a girl sitted down, broken and less full of emotions I might add...

When you see me bear in mind that I'm no longer who I used to be
but rather I'm someone minding my own because the world has shown me it
and that has changed who I am forever more

My new identity lies within my tears

Looking at you at times has given me mixed emotions
Some days I love what I see
Some days I don't
Some days I smile and speak to my own as if another was starring right back at me

You know me, you've seen me clothed and all...
You've heard my voice time and again and still you remain a faithful friend that strengthens me through your silence...

Time and again you keep watch over me
In my deepest nightmares and in my sweetest dreams
Through my reflection I am able to see your sweet smile looking back at me and telling me that I'm worth more all because you're mine and mine for keeps

Dear mirror mirror your more than a reflection cover where one has to ask whose the fairest of them all and stuff
You're my friend, my advisor and so much more...
As I wipe the very dust that makes you glam in the morning light
I see that your deepest wish and desire is for my children to know who you are and for the rest to follow onwards

If you shatter and break into a million, it will be as if a part of me has lost a piece forever

Dear mirror mirror fine and swell thank you for the loving you give