I'm not tired.
I'm having a mental breakdown.
I slept plenty last night.

I don't remember all the names
of the boys I fell in love with
in the days of my youth.
But I have preserved
each and every one of them
in the words that I scribble.
So which poem are you?

Hello Demon Lover,
Take me for a ride.
Set my spirit free,
Pull me to the dark side.


Let me unleash the animal,
Become your prey.
Darling take me to the wild side,
Take me all the way.

i love you, i love you, i love you!!! O wait i changed my mind. i was happy when i said yes but now the circumstances have changed. People change. You change, i change, they change, we change. We are together until we change and then, arguments ensue. But doesn’t everybody argue? Yeah, they do, they do…..behind closed doors in explosions of anger, that afterwards say O wow i’m sorry that wasn’t me! But yes it was! Yes it was! It’s all signs of the change that has begun. In a split second a relationship can be destroyed with the razor tip of a tongue. Weather change is 1month or 50 years it’s song will be sung! Change is the essence of humanity, change is the seed of all manipulation, the soil of fear. And you reap what you sow. And O how change will fool us with the most ideal circumstances then…goodbye…..Change is a lie! And i no longer wish to change myself or another, not even a fraction my sisters and brothers. i wish to die to this lie so to rise in the unchanging Love of Christ who never changes. Loving you, loving all, just as you are, in a love that’s never shaken even when its forsaken by a world that forever changes…..

At, twelve he wasn't just a boy, ahoy!
Stout cute tender, was he the boy, ahoy!
Moments before he met someone who was not a boy ! Ahoy!
Skipped a beat or 2, the heart ! Ahoy!
Blue gown it was and indeed the smile, which blushed the boy ! Ahoy!
No wonder the boy found his Helen of Troy! Ahoy!
For the world seems to be only her, it was love what he felt the boy! Ahoy!
The horsemen gathered around her, from nowhere came the Roy ! Ahoy!
Grabbed her wrist,
When she tried to resist,
She cried for help, but the boy ! Ahoy!
But the boy, couldn't utter for he was stupefied, for whence he saw her die, with his own eye!
The twilight saw two souls die! Ahoy!
The anger, vengeance isn’t kid’s toy! Ahoy!
Craved for the head of the Roy, the boy, Ahoy!
Desired for the blood of Roy, the boy, Ahoy!
Vengeance gathered courage, foots stepped towards the Roy! Ahoy!
**** the Roy was what he knew, the boy, Ahoy!
Foots gathered pace, faster, faster echoed in mind of the boy, Ahoy!
THUD!  Tranquil was in the ambience, no sight of joy!
Scream of boy broke the ice! Made turn around the Roy! Ahoy!
For the boy was soaked in blood, was shot in heart by the guards, boy! Ahoy!
The Roy was stunned to hear the boy cry, for he uttered the last phrase, the boy! ahoy!
“ you’ve killed me twice Roy!
You killed me twice same night, Ahoy! ”

You're not sorry.
I couldn't figure out why for the longest time.
I didn't understand until now.
Until this empty moment were 2 and 2 start looking more like 4 than 83.
You're a sadist.
I completely forgot.
You told me once, maybe twice before.
But I didn't believe you.
You seemed too sweet, too gentle, too warm.
To the touch, at least.
But you were right.
You did this to me on purpose.
You are enjoying making me and watching me suffer.
It makes you feel important, like you've had an affect.
And I've been literally feeding it to you with a shovel.
I thought I was making you feel guilty, showing you what you have done to me.
But I was doing just the opposite.
By showing you my anguish, I only fueled your sick minipulative mind.
I am your puppet.
See me dance, cut my strings, watch me fall,
and laugh and laugh and laugh.

Hey, Girl what’s up can I ask you some questions?
Cause I don’t know how to catch your attention.
I don’t know how to make you smile
and I don’t know how to make you fly.

The only one thing that I know,
Is that, I love you,
I need you,
and I can’t live without you.

But I feel fear,
feels like I’m not here;
Baby you’ll tear…
My heart.

Don’t tear my heart,
Please don’t break it apart.

I don’t give a **** about their reactions
I just can’t stop this obsession.
I don’t know what’s your zodiac sign
And I don’t know if you will be mine.

Cause the only one thing that I know,
Is that, I’m happy,
I feel free,
and I can see, you with me,

we will be,
immensely in love…
Up above…
I’m in love…

Hey, Girl can we go on a vacation?
Please hurry and tell about your decision.
I don’t know if you have some time
And I don’t know if I’ll cross the line.

Cause the only one thing that I know,
Is that, I love you,
I need you,

And I can’t live without you
But I feel fear,
feels like I’m not here,
and  maybe you’ll tear My heart

Don’t tear my heart
Please don’t break it apart.

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring,
I just know how to sing,
This to you,
Just for you
*The only one thing that I know.

Suns Rise,
I love the sunrises,
The way the breathtaking light creeps across the sky,
They enfold into something beautiful,
So many colors,
So much passion,
They engolf the darkness,
It's a trutly heart stoping sight that not many take the time to see,
It goes until there's nothing but light left,
Then as the sun becomes tiresome,
It crawls to it's sleep on the other side of the sky,
The light slowly fades into so many bright and beautiful colors,
So pretty yet so sad,
Sad this beautiful day is over,
But there's always the memories,
Suns Set.