there's something wrong with me
and i really hate it
so much

there has to be something
******* up in my brain
making me think this way
act this way
be this way
and it

d i s g u s t s

me

thoughts racing through my mind
disgusting
degrading
filthy
thoughts

telling me what to do
showing me
  h o w  
to do it

and
i
hate
it
so
much

I want to bleed
I'm so done hiding
**** that noble deed
They're not worth fighting

Let them see my ****** hands
***** this ****** up system,
Where no one understands
I've reached rock bottom

My raw wrist burns
No longer hid
One small cut turns
To a goodbye unbid

I want to bleed
Just let me go
I'd be so much happier
To go alone

Let them see
my ****** hands
Let them know
my ****** plans

The words feel heavier when they're standing before you
You feel your throat swell and your tongue twist
As hard liquor feeds at your cavities
Finally the courage to word your pain
But no one likes a  sober man , who swallows liquor to comfort the strain

If i would meet a Genie
On a parched and dusty road,
Found down upon his luck
With wishes to be sold.
Well,
Just one,
If truth be told.
Rattling around the lamp
Unkempt, rusted, and old.

I would trade all my tomorrows
To take away your pain and sorrow.

So I turn out all my pockets,
Gifts of silver, lint and gold.
Promises of future earnings
Whatever I shall own.
Offers of the occult.
Blood, shadow and bone.
The sum of all my dreams,
The deed to my rugged soul.