It’s about that time again
When somehow I slip up
And let my mind wander
Let myself think freely
And it leads to you

My head spins with nostalgia
My eyes burn
My throat tightens
My heart beats too fast
My palms get sweaty
And my feet can’t seem to sit still

It’s about that time again
When I start to miss you, to miss us
But like always that longing quickly turns to a hatred

Dare I say
You forgot me

I thought we had something strong
When you’ve worked to build a sturdy base
You fight to keep it
You don’t let it slip away
You don’t watch it disappear

It came with ease,
for you,
to let this one go

It came with great difficulty,
for me,
to see you stand by and simply do nothing

Why do we always want what we can't have
Why is greed an essential part of the human mind

I can't help but
always seem to want what's not mine to have

I try my hardest to
resist because
it is in my reach

I've been spending countless hours
debating
but always come up with the same answer -

Leave it alone.

"but what if it's meant to be"

For all I know
I could be missing out on the one person who can make me the happiest
Instead
I settle for our friendship

It pains me to stay away
But I know it would hurt even more if I didn't