Have you ever stopped to wonder at the trees, or look up at the clouds with awe, or just think about the world? Sometime, I bet you have, when you were a child.
As children, we marvel at everything in the world.
Everything's amazing.
You know, children are right. Everything is amazing.
Look around you. everyone here had a one in a million, million, million chance of existing, yet they do. One in a number too big to count to in a million lifetimes, and yet you all exist. Think of the world, now. Every part of it, the trees, the grass, every particle of water and  air, had a one in an amazingly high number chance of existing. Combine, the odds of this world existing the way it does is nearly impossible.
When you believe you aren't special, remember. Look around and remember you had a one in a million million million shot of existing. But you do.
Maybe, just once a day, stop. Look around you, and remember.
Remember everything here faced nearly impossible odds, and yet it's here
Maybe, next time you face impossible odds, you'll remember: you already have done the impossible
You exist.

Have you ever stopped to wonder at the trees, or look up at the clouds with awe, or just think about the world? Sometime, I bet you have, when you were a child.
As children, we marvel at everything in the world.
Everything's amazing.
You know, children are right. Everything is amazing.
Look around you. everyone here had a one in a million, million, million chance of existing, yet they do. One in a number too big to count to in a million lifetimes, and yet you all exist. Think of the world, now. Every part of it, the trees, the grass, every particle of water and  air, had a one in an amazingly high number chance of existing. Combine, the odds of this world existing the way it does is nearly impossible.

You may not always shine
As you go barefoot over stone.
You might be so long together
    Or you might be alone.
And you won't find that love comes easy
    but that love is always right.
  So even when dark clouds gather
      You will be the light.

I've had a few issues I was taking care of. I'm sorry I forgot to come on here.
But I'll get up a poem before tomorrow night, promise.

Any advice on how to tell them so they'll freak out less?

Or should I not?

It used to hurt with every breath I took because I didn't want to live if you weren't with me
Now it hurts with every one I let out because I don't want to let go.

I guess I should write a poem
but all I can do is cry
because it's six months past
and you're not here.

Darling, what kind of time do you call this?
it's late
too late
and I've missed you

oh I miss the old days,
"our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along, because
we know that none of them have felt this way."

I guess what I'm saying, in simpler words, would be I miss you
and I love you
and come back to me
please

(I know my day isn't as bad as yours, neither is my family, but please don't make me feel worse.)
Okay so I've been sick for the past three weeks, not anything that shows just nausea. I told my mom and for some reason my whole family thought it would be extremely funny to laugh at me for being pregnant. FYI I am thirteen and have never dated a boy in my state. They all know this could never happen, but for some reason they decided to all mock me because of it. When I ask them for help they don't help. My mom nearly made me walk to school on streets that were so icy I couldn't go ten feet without slipping, even on the grass. My friends pushed me away and seemed annoyed with me. I snapped at everyone. I have a ton of make up work that I have to do. My dad cares more about my grades then if I'm sick or not. My brothers found out I'm scared of them and are using it to make me feel even worse. My friend yelled at me, then got even more upset when I couldn't answer for five minutes, and told me she hated me. Right now I have one friend telling me I'm worth surviving but a whole army of people in my head screaming "DIE!" On top of that all I still feel horribly sick and nervous and stressed and just overall depressed. No one believes me or seems to care about me and I don't know why I should live anymore. So if this is good bye then I love you all, but it probably won't be because I could never finish anything anyway, another reason why I'm a ***** up. Well, good bye guys. Maybe.

I could have contact my boyfriend's parents through his uncle and risk finding out that either 1. He isn't who he says he is or 2. He can never talk to me again

Or I could wait it out, uncertain of if he'll ever come back to me but with hope

I don't know

Um...
I went on the Internet.....





And nothing else?
Shoot.

Always do my homework on time
2. Get all A's or A+'s
3. Write more
4. Get off the iPad and help mom and dad/explore the outside world
5. Scar free arms
6. No falling in love or crushes on anyone but my boyfriend
7. Learn when it's appropriate to hold on, but learn how to let go
8. 125 followers on hello poetry by the end of the year?
9. Be a tiny bit more social?
10. Somehow be able to talk to my boyfriend by the end of the year
11. Earn that ipad mini
12. Organize more and be cleaner
13. Learn how to stop procrastinating
14. Smile. The people around me it was beautiful and helped them smile when I smiled, so I will
15. Be a better friend
16. Read more
17. Improve people's lives, maybe save one?
18. Stop lying, it's okay to say that something hurts
19. Sing out in chorus more, participate more in class in general
20. Love myself

I have no doubt you're in heaven right now. if prayers can help a soul that was already unscarred I alone would have already saved your soul forget about everyone else. So if you read this from heaven, I love you. You deserve this buddy. I'm glad you finally were able to fly without the limitations of our earthly forms. I may do one final person with wings, just for you, because all the beautiful colors yours would be amaze me just the way your soul and poetry did. I'll save it and frame it because I never want to forget you. And I will move on because you wouldn't want me to waste my time crying over you, but I will also have some days where I just curl up and cry because you are my best friend and I lost you to the void of death no one living can breach. Honestly though I would never erase a moment of talking to you. I  would do this all again in a heart beat oh Andy if you can read this I would do everything again. Except I would meet you sooner and talk to you more so we could have more time. R.I.P Andy, you will live on in our hearts

Once a wise person said "if someone lives on in the hearts of men, he lives on." I think. If not, I just said it. And from what I can tell that's true. So Andy, though he may not have his physical body anymore, still lives, in the minds and hearts of all of us.  Andy lives on. We can repost his poetry and write poems in his honor. We will move on, but a part of us died with Andy, and part of him lived with us.

I think Andy is talking to me, or his spirit watches me, or something because I have the inexplicable urge to just address the air around me as if it were him. I want to talk to it, interact with it, ask it questions and say what I never got to say to him to it. Call me crazy but I want to talk to Andy. And I feel like he's listening.

Our angel has gained his wings. While we grieve, parts of us should rejoice, because Andy is in a better, happy place, and finally he can fly

Fly fast, fly far, fly anywhere.
We love you
Andy

Okay honestly I want beautiful words for Andy but all I can get is a bunch of word **** about how I can't believe it, won't believe it.... So I'll just say for now that Andy is honestly the best person I ever met and though he is... Not not going to type that word fill it in yourself.... He lives on in our hearts forever. Someday someone should put his poetry into just a book because it deserves to be shown to the world. We love you Andy<3

Valentine's Day
And now I have back
The person I love
my reason to smile.

It's been a long time
5 months without you
but it felt like forever
without reason to smile

Then came that day
friday the 14th
My lucky day I guess
I got back my reason to smile

I now have my light
after months of darkness
for you came back,
My reason to smile

Is it even possible
to write out my happiness?
if it is
There's not enough paper.

Valentine's Day
And now I have back
The person I love
my reason to smile.

You are my reason to smile<3

Look at me.
Am I not a real, not serial killer thirteen year old girl?
Yes, I am real and I feel emotions and I love him.
So why can't he be real too?
Why can't there be a real, not serial killer sixteen year old guy out there?
One who feels emotions and loves me.
Yes, what if he's a serial killer, I've heard,
But what about this:
what if he's who he says?
Because despite all the what ifs
All those scenarios you make up
You never mention the fact that he could be real
If we call and video chat and talk all the time
Who are you to say what we have isn't real.
You keep your relationships in your way
But if you'real not going to support mine
At least just let me be.
There's an honest-to-goodness reall boy on the other side of that screen
And *I love him

Why do I think of the best poem ideas
When I can't write them down?

I love you more than there are stars in the sky
2. I'd send a post card to you dear, cause I wish you were here.
3. I love you. Forever. They can never take that away
4. When I think of you, I don't feel so alone
5. You are, and have always been, my dream
6. As many times as I blink, I'll think of you tonight.
7. This is falling for you when you are worlds away
8. Sometimes the only part of my life I'm sure of is the part I share with you.
9. ThunderXStarry since 8/14/12
10. You've been number one since the day we met
11. I wish I could cross my arms and cross your mind
12. Circle me and the needle moves gracefully, back and forth, if my heart was a compass you'd be north
13. Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall,
14. wherever you go if my heart was a house you'd be home
15. If I had one wish I'd wish for you
16. I'd walk the world for you
17. It's not going to be easy, but it is going to be worth it.
18. I'm amazed when I see you because I'm looking at everything I ever wanted
19. You see, there's this guy.... And he has my heart... And he's you.
20. Without you, I have nothing, but with you I have everything.
21. You are my world
22. Cute memories of you are what get me through rough days
23. I don't care what we talk about, I just want to talk to you
24. To the world you're one person, but to me you're the world
25. If I'm with you, I'm home.

Some days I wonder if to you it's a blessing that you're not allowed to talk to me but you don't know how to stop so you don't end it when you come back. I wonder if you realize how little I cared for you the first two months we talked and how I never realized what the word love meant when I said it until the first time you left. I don't think I even knew how much you meant to me until now and now is exactly when I can't tell you. Sometimes I wonder if you want to come back but then I realize if you didn't you'd have told me because we were always honest with each other. Sometimes I wonder but then I comfort myself and smile becauseI know you love me.

I was sittin' in math in the middle of class in the middle of my work
I had one thought on the questions, the other on You
I turn around as the song turns up and realize there's something wrong
It's nothing, I was just thinking.... We don't have a song.

Then I think
Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I was walking down the main office steps  
After everything that day.
It'd gone all wrong, I'd been hated on
And lost and thrown awa-ay

I got to the  hallway
Well on my way
To my normal seat.

My mind started thinkin'
Of all the things we did
And I began to si-i-ing,

Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know,

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I heard every album
Listened to the radio
Waiting for something to come along.
That was as good as our song.

Cuz Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I was sittin' in math in the middle of class in the middle of my work
I grabbed a pen and an old assignment and I wrote down our song

What do you give the guy you love for Christmas?
I gave him poetry,
He loved it
I gave him a song
He loved it
I gave him all the words I could think of
And he loved them
But what can I get him now?

Don't tell me I can't be in love with him,
Just because it's online.
My boyfriend never said the word love when not referring to me.
He came back to me twice.
Tell me to my face I don't really love him
And I will prove you wrong.

How do you get over someone who was so important?

Andy
Let me just tell you
That I...
I love you.
You're my best friend
I'd never want more
Then that.
You made me smile
For weeks we would talk and laugh and I would nearly get in trouble in math class just to see what you had to say.
You're honestly one of the best friends I could hope for, you showed me purpose when I believed there wasn't any
You don't know how my face and heart would light up when you replied to me
And though we haven't talked in a while I miss you
I'd get a plane ticket out to you and help you accomplish your dreams if I could
Remember when you said we could go live in Seattle and hire an actress to go to gym for me?
Remember?
And we could go to Kansas and you could teleport to get me?
Andy, please...
I know you have no control over it
Three weeks to live...
You deserve three eternities
I'd give them to you if I could
But I can't
No one can
Though I know we all would.
So live your life to the fullest
Use those three weeks to the max,
And never, never give up dear Andy
Fight for us
Fight for me
But don't give in
You
Don't
Have
To
Die,
But
Even
If
You
Do
You
Will
Live
On.

I think I'll try and stay off the internet for the next week or so
I can try to be on at school
But not for very long.
So don't be alarmed
If I'm not here
And just in case I miss it
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I can't listen to a love song
Without relating it to you or us

and I can't love this much baby,
and love you from this far

But every time I check my email I still have a faint hope that maybe you emailed me?
Listening to our song and thinking of you during class love.

Let me know if I ever improved your life or made you smile or brightened your day or anything.... I need to know I'm worth living for.

What kind of crazy loyalty
Does my boyfriend have?
It just struck me yesterday
How loyal he must be.

To wait three months
For the girl who made you wait,
Though it was her fault?
That's loyalty.

To make this a challenge,
I'm doing me.
So, good things on me....
I can write pretty well
I finished NaNoWriMo
Uh.....
I type pretty fast when I get into it
I'm in chorus
I can do school stuff if I try
Uh....
I'm alive?
Is that a good thing?
Not everyone hates me
I may have a few friends
Um.....
I don't know any more
But thank you Andy
For that challenge,
It sort of did help.

And what do you want
From me
What?
Why do you talk to me
But you didn't reply
What

I don't even know

I did it
I won NaNoWriMo
AND I'M FREAKING PROUD OF IT
HECK YEAH
FIRST TIME WINNER!!!! :)

Heck with this world
I hate it
I'm leaving
*forever

Whatever I say, someone takes it wrong
Whenever I defend myself, people tell me I'm stupid
I get ignored by everybody
And so, I've decided,
I give up
So hate on me all you like
Tell me in the comments
Message me if you don't want everyone to see
But tell me how you hate me
And my poetry's awful
And I'm just a stupid child
Who doesn't know anything
And hasn't got any right to hurt
Tell me again
Not like I'll care
Because I hear it enough
But right now,
From today on,
As long as I live
Which may not be very long,
*I GIVE UP

I got to 40,000 words in this month
And I may finish NaNoWriMo
I may win
I think that
For once in my life
I've earned the right
To be proud
Of myself.

I step off the plane
Into the terminal
After scanning the crowd,
I put my head down
And head to baggage claim.

I wait as I look
Up at the board
And I hear a voice
Behind me asking
"Hello, do I know you?"

I turn around
And stare him in the eyes
For the first time
I see my love in real life
And I can only smile

When I recover,
I look up at him and say
"I don't believe so.
Nice to meet you,
I'm your other half"

Laughing, he hugs me close
"Hello, other half.
Funny, weird name,
You look like a Caroline,
Or maybe a Starry"

I laugh and just smile,
Then, pulling away,
I look up at him
Look in his eyes,
And tell him
"I love you"

It's been a year
Filled with problems
But now you're here
Almost as if to solve them
And I can't live in a world without you now

All my life
I've been searching for you
How did I survive
In this world before you
'cause I don't wanna live another day without you now

This is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's
Happening to you and me

All I'm gonna have
Is all that you can give me
And I'll give right back
Everything I have in me
'cause nothing ever felt as right
As this does right now

I'll go back to before we met
Can I erase the past
Try harder to forget 'cause
Nothing will ever be as good as here and now

'cause when I looked into your eyes
And you dared to stare right back
You should've said "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half"

And this is the best thing
The best thing that could be happening
And I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's happening
This is the best thing (the best thing)
The best thing that could be happening (the best thing)
And I think you would agree (whoooaaa whooaa)
The best thing is that it's
Happening to you and me

Always knew
I'd find someone
I never dreamt
It'd be like this
You've surpassed
All that I've hoped for (and ever wished)
And I'm tryin'
So hard
With all my heart and mind
To make your life
As good as you've made mine

This is the best thing (the best thing)
The best thing that could be happening (the best thing)
And I think you would agree (whooaaa)
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

The best thing is that it's happening to you and me
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

(The best thing) The best thing that could be happening
(The best thing) I think you would agree
The best thing is that it's happening to you and me

I hate you. No. Not really. I hate how you can never talk to me and when you can it's not for very long and I hate how you make me so happy when you're there even though I know that as soon as you leave the happiness will be gone, I hate the way I just have to talk about you whenever anything connects to you, I guess what I'm saying is I hate that I love you, I hate that I fell in love with the one boy online whose parents don't want him to be in love, I hate all the little things that make me love you.
On that note, I love you. I love talking to you and  he way you make me feel and how even the thought of you can raise a smile to my face I love how you remained in love with me even though your parents don't want you to and they punish you, against all odds you still love me and I know you're the only person who would still love me, however badly I've treated you you came back and always tell me you love me, you remember me and keep going when everything in life tells you to quit, I love the way you still argue with me about how I'm better to you and how you love me more, I'm so lucky to even have met you, and somehow through crazy means I can't understand you love me and I just want to tell you I love you and even when I hate you I love all the things I hate I love you Daniel, Thunderclaw, whatever name you go by I love you.

Last night, I had a dream
I went to Kansas
And I saw you there
It was the best dream of my life

I woke up believing
I'd see you beside me,
Because in the dream,
We fell asleep together.

Why did I have to
Wake up to the reality,
You've been gone for four months,
And will be away much longer.

I reload the page
And smile
Because Andy
Replied to me.

Now you might think,
Oh, you're in love,
But no, I'm not,
He's just a great friend

Andy is kind
Andy is amazing
Andy makes me smile
And makes me laugh

Andy, I just want to say,
Thank you so much
For making me laugh
For helping me smile

You are the best friend
I could ask for
I hope we stay friends
Forever

Thank you so much for everything Andy

What kind of friends don't even care when you want to **** yourself?
Love you guys too.

**** me now, please

It's because I don't want to stop talking to you

Close the window
close the tab.
you know he's not coming back
why do you still hope?

Oh lonely poet girl
for whom does your heart sing?
it sings for the boy in Kansas
a thousand miles away

Why do you think he loves you,
when he leaves without a trace?
why do you say he cares
when he left you high and dry?

oh happy poet girl
tell me from the past
do you believe he loves you?
if so, love him back

delete his email
delete his contact
scratch out his name
from your heart

oh tired poet girl
don't give up just yet
if he truly loves you
you know he will come back

erase his phone number
delete your den
tell your friends
not to mention him

oh joyful poet girl
Is it he who makes you smile?
if so then you're in love
treasure the smiles and him

Get him out
of your mind,
and soon he can be out
of your heart

oh scared poet girl
what makes you cower in fear?
the thought of him leaving
and never coming back

He abandoned you,
yet you love him still?
in what way does he
deserve your love?

oh hopeful poet girl
with dreams of a future so bright
hold on to those dreams,
maybe they'll come true.

Close the window
close the tab
If he loved you,
he would've come back

oh sad poet girl,
who is it that broke your heart?
who is it that can fix it?
they're the same boy

Because I'm not
Honestly, I'm sort of glad.
I'm just saying
We all make mistakes
And you made a huge one
And maybe I shouldn't have been so blunt
Maybe I should have been nicer about it
But you should've been too
I just wanted to say
I don't hate you
I'm just not your friend
And that was inevitable
So I wrote this
Just to tell you
I'm not saying I'm sorry,
That would be a lie
I just wish it didn't have to be so harsh

When your realize
You're better off without them
You're happier not talking,
You knew this was inevitable
But you delayed it
Made excuses
Not this time.
This time, they went too far
This time, what they did was inexcusable.
This time, even you can't excuse what they did
Blow it off
This hurt someone
This killed them
This is inexcusable
They tell you they hate you
For saying your opinion
And you smile,
That's when you know
This friendship is dead

why did you leave? Last time was bad enough,
he broke my heart,
even though he
never should have had it

Why can't you be online?
i* miss you and I
love you more than
life

You might never think of me, I might be the cloud
Over you head or maybe the monster
Under your bed

Reality is hard
enough with you, but now wherever I
turn there's darkness
Until you
Return my world is gray when you come back I will
never let you go again
*?