woke up
on a decision
that the day is
finally here,

today is the day
I take over this
body of mine,

today I make the decisions,
today I draw the line,
today I live the moment,
today I manifest my
aesthetic into a lifestyle,

today I will act
like the main character
I am in this
story of mine,

and that's that.

I have come to an endless pit,
And whirlpool of feelings.
I have made a pool of tears,
Of endlessly crying.
Created thunderstorm,
Created hurricane.
I have made everything annoying,
I have made everything ugly.
But my hands suddenly ask for a prayer,
To let my emotions flow,
To let everything go.
And God answered me,
With love and sincerity.
He have made my life beautiful.
I have come to a paradise of beauty,
And laid on a bed of roses.

Lay aside some time
To listen to your body
Let your senses rave
And dance under the sunshine
May your flesh be transcendent

what if we made it
what if
the regrets
and insecurities
couldn’t reach us anymore
helicopter seeds
descending past our ears
making little piles of our past
crushed under the weight of right now
right this second
the hate would simply fly past us
we’d fill each other with life
your golden ego would crack
crumbling down with the leaves
and all would be well

if you spy an opportunity
to help someone change
for the better
urge them to take it on
and offer assistance where you can

be the positivity you wish to see

but at a certain point
you may have to accept them
for who they are

we are all of us, limited in this condition

I want to be able to look in the mirror and not look at what I'm insecure about. I want to be able to look at my body with love and not hate what I see. I want to be confident in myself. I want to be able to walk in a store and not have a mental breakdown when all I see is the tag that says “Small” and be able to hold back my tears. I want to be able to say out loud how much I weigh without feeling ashamed or guilty. I want to be proud of myself, I want to be happy with how I look without having to pretend like it’s ok that I look like this.

Everyone encourages you to be happy with the way you look,
why should someone encourage you to be satisfied with what you have
when what you are is unhealthy and lazy with no motivation whatsoever